me and katie at circus circus

alicia in virginia city

me in virginia city

me and dave

Go Penguins GO!!!!

me and katie in San Francisco, at pier 39, it was FREEZING

alcatraz in the background

me mom and katie

me and katie tubing, i'm in the purple one, she's in the red one

this is one hot guy i picked up at the lake, also known as my brother!

me and tim at the lake

me and mom

us girls riding an elephant at marine world

papa, hailey and me

katie and me ready for hot august nights, a big 50's celebration in reno, and yes, those are poodle skirts we're in

this candy store had so much freaking candy!!

katie and me being dorks

katie, aimee, and myself, also at circus circus

me by the river, the first day out...i 'm white, i know

my niece is the cutest!

Your Birthdate: April 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable. This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research. You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

okay, one day left, then off to see my mom! yay, i'm gone for an entire month, hopefully i have lots of time to think and reflect on how i feel, because there are so many emotions i'm feeling right now that i cant even comprehend how to deal with them, a lot of what i'm feeling is narrowing down to two situations, church and work. Its hard to deal with those two right now, but work is becoming easier with each passing day. church is getting harder with each passing day. But by the end of the trip, i'll know. I'll know how i feel, and the actions i'm going to take, it might be a long transition of pain, but it's going to be in God's hands, thats the only thing that can be said, Susie has helped me a lot with this decision, and won't know the final result until it's final, but i'll try to keep ya'll updated. I wish i could say more about it, but i can't for personal reasons. you guys should understand. i say you guys as in brett and susie. haha. okay, well i'm going to go finish packing, and getting ready for nevada. love you guys!

Okay, so today's payday and i go in and cash my check, i only pull out less than half my pay check, and save the rest, good right? okay, well 2 hours later, i'm out of money and complaining that i've spent all of it. I'm a horrible person to take to the store, because all i want to do is spend my money. of course, i go to the dvd section, and see what kind of useless movies are for sale, and buy the two that everyone would over look, but i think its cool, i bought Twister, and Charlottes Web, two of my favorite movie's , then i go and get 2 hand bags that arent needed, hair ties, toe rings, 2 bathing suit bottoms,and a volley ball, all things that if used, will not be seen very often, except the volley ball. Then we go to target, (my favorite store in the world) and i preceed to buy another pair of sunglasses, another pair of sandals, a mouse pad, stickers, a wierd clock, and more hair ribbon ties. then drive to AC more, onther one of my favorite stores, where i buy more useless stuff, sharpe's (they had cool colors) stickers, more stickers, more hair ties, a crochet needle, ribbon, and other useless stuff. haha, I'm a dork, nothing i bought is conventional, but worth the fun of finding useless stuff to spend my hard earned money on. that was my day, oh, and i saw some of my favorite people, Chanel, Kelly I, Nichole, steve, and of course my partner in good, (we're superhero's, so we're not partners in crime) Brian. YAY, that was my day, great fun of sleeping, eating, and shopping, my three FAVORITE things to do!

Oh yea, check out my favorite Band's music, its "The Everglow" by Mae, thanks to Brian for introducing me to them!

okay, so yesterday, it hurt, i basically cleaned out a year and half of savings in one nice swoop, i had to pay for plane tickets yesterday, and go shopping, it was HORRIBLE i walked out of the bank with a sick feeling in my stomache. but it went away as soon as i started shopping. haha. but i bought really cute clothes, and had a day to myself to think... wait, i didnt do that, haha, i just went shopping and got my nails done, and just hung out with myself, it was beautiful. okay, well i guess i could go to church, even though its only 9:42, and i'm ready, and church doesnt start for another hour. haha, and i only got 4 hours of sleep, but i'm hyper, so it's all good. okay, i'm out, love ya'll

okay, so a lil dilemma, i dont know what to do... not really, i'm not in a dilemma at all, i just needed a good catchy line. are you strong enough to be my man? haha, i'm listening to sheryl crow, i love her! its like all the old school songs she used to sing. I'm bored, just sittin in susies room looking at all the poems i've written, and how pathetic most of them are. haha. how sad is this 9 pm on a friday night, and what am i doing? ... writing a blog to no one because no one but susie ever reads this. haha. okay, i'm gonna call people and see if they wanna hang out. love you all! ps... 35 days till i'm a senior.

man, i'm tired, i dont know why, but lately all i wanna do is sleep. Not much going on, just had a pool party for youth, for Jason's birthday, too bad katie and rebecca, and ozzy, and andrew are the only people who talk to me, i always say i dont really care, but in all honesty, i really do. But nothing i can do about it. I kinda wish the people i invited to come tonight had come, but its okay, life goes on.... whoa how the life goes on... sorry, got distracted. Well i think thats it for tonight, i'll post later, and all that nice stuff!

i promised you i'd never give up, if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad, if it makes you happy, then why are you so sad? ~Sheryl Crow

Good past few days, i missed being at cfc this week, but katie and i went to lexington to Mt. Olevit church, which is where one of the groups from ccc was from, so we got to see all those people, except, katie was allergic to something and we had to leave 10 mins into service, but it was still fun seeing all those people again.
I cant wait to go to nevada, its gonna be great fun, i leave july 27, and come back august 8. Its gonna be sooooo much fun, basically, I REALLY wanna show katie what reno is all about. I've been talking to my mom, and she's got some really cool stuff she said we could do, one day i know we're gonna go up to pyramid lake and go jet skiing, since katie's only been on one in her life. and show her the lake, like the pyramids in the middle, and the coves and stuff, since i haven't been there in SOOO long, its gonna be nice to get in the cold water. Then one day we're gonna go up to Twin Bridges, its a big waterfall up by Lake Tahoe, and climb the 5 miles to the top.... btw, i've made it so close to the top, but never to the top. but its so cool, cus it's all granite rock to the top. and then we're gonna go to Lake Tahoe, and show her how pretty it is, and how its cleaner than your bath water, its awesome, and then we're gonna go to Hot August Nights, which is a big festival that reno has every first week of august, where hot rodder's from all around the country come to display their cars, and no car there is from 1960 or past, and at night, they all drive right through downtown where they close the streets for them, and everyone is dressed in 50's stuff, the entire town goes crazy, its so awesome, me and katie are even making poodle skirts! then lets see, we're gonna just hang out at the lake, and around town, i'm hoping i'm gonna see a few of my friends, like nancy , megan, chelsey, josh, and kim, but who knows, well i'm out for the day, just thought i'd share what i'm REALLY excited about!

my favorite thing from the long day in the hospital, it was a sign as you were walking in, and it just makes me smile!

Aaralyn Grace, born 07/06/05, at 8:56 pm, weighed 8lbs and was 20 1/2 inches long

okay, so yesterday morning, i get woken up with... "its time" me.."time for what?" ...."what do people normally say its time for?" me.."I dont know, what time is it (getting grumpy)" "okay, well i'm going to the store for flowers and a teddy bear" "AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Carrie and Brett... BABY!" hahaha, the other voice was my sister telling me that carrie went into labor! I was sooo excited, yet i didnt get to shower or anything. so i got to hang out at the hospital with miss samantha, brett, and carrie's family, and miss tere, while we waited for carrie to give birth. well by 6 30 nothing had happened, so Q and I decided that nothing would, and we went to youth, and never got a phone call, and so as i'm leaving youth, to go back to the hospital, i call amy, see how she's doing, and i call 4 minutes too late, carrie had Aaralyn Grace, at 8:56 pm on 07/06/05 she weighed 8 lbs and was 20 1/2 inches long, she's a beautiful baby girl, and i'm so happy for Carrie and Brett, they did an awesome job! YAY, its baby time!

okay, so good or the bad first? the good? sounds good to me! okay, so it was fourth of july, and i got to sleep in till 12: 25, i saw brian today, which he made me smile! and i saw chanel, and me and jason wore matching shirts today! um okay, on to the bad.... dun dun dun.....
I didnt get enough sleep, i was still tired as no other, i didnt get dinner till 12 40 am, and it took 10 mins in the drive thru at wendy's, it was july 4, meaning , everyone and their mom gets ice cream before the fireworks, which steve didnt think would happen, but i knew it would because i worked last year, and no one would listen to me, but we made more money tonight, than we did last night! it was horrible, and i only had 4 people and myself, but then 2 of them left, leaving susan closing backroom, will closing line, and me doing money and lobby, and floors in all three, because i'm cool like that and can close like a beast! haha. i'm so tired though, betsy, our floor machine... (no offense to anyone named betsy, thats just what her name is) is heavy, because she's broken, and so as i pushed the thing, water was leaking everywhere, and i had to take a rag and do it by hand.... eeeek, it was grosse, but then its all good because we were outa there at 12:25, and thats good, cus sometimes with even more closer's , it takes a lot longer! then i mentioned something about hanging out with brian after close, but because it was so late, nothing could be done, so no coffee for kristy tonight, and i'm really tired and grumpy, but its okay, and carrie still hasn't popped out a baby yet!

okay, end vent.
hope everyone has a wonderful night, or whats left of it! love you guys! happy 4 of july

hey there, i know, its hard to feel like i dont care at all,where you are and how you feel with these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on, slow things down, or speed them up. Not enough, or way too much. how are you wheni 'm gone?
you know you do you kill me well, you like it too and i can tell, you never stop until, my final breath is gone, so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight, or die. Spare me just three last words, " I love you is all she heard, i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever. and i cant make it on my own, because my heart is in ohio, so cut my wrists and black my eyes so i can fall asleep tonight, or die, because you kill me.

sorry about ragging on people in my last post, but i'm tired of it. i was looking at pictures this morning, and its so weird to see how much everyone's changed, like i remember in 9th grade, i had SHORT blonde hair, and was skinny, and then like susie, used to be blonde, and like, just all my friends who've changed sooooo much, its so weird, but cool in a way i guess, well now that i've remenissed, i'm going to go get my hair cut, i'll see ya'll later

hey there, i know, its hard to feel like i dont care at all,where you are and how you feel with these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on, slow things down, or speed them up. Not enough, or way too much. how are you wheni 'm gone?
you know you do you kill me well, you like it too and i can tell, you never stop until, my final breath is gone, so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight, or die. Spare me just three last words, " I love you is all she heard, i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever. and i cant make it on my own, because my heart is in ohio, so cut my wrists and black my eyes so i can fall asleep tonight, or die, because you kill me.

sorry about ragging on people in my last post, but i'm tired of it. i was looking at pictures this morning, and its so weird to see how much everyone's changed, like i remember in 9th grade, i had SHORT blonde hair, and was skinny, and then like susie, used to be blonde, and like, just all my friends who've changed sooooo much, its so weird, but cool in a way i guess, well now that i've remenissed, i'm going to go get my hair cut, i'll see ya'll later

I've noticed something that makes me so mad, and almost so mad to the point of tears. Some people change when they get into relationships. and its not , oh, i'm gonna hang out with them today, and we'll do lunch later, its the, hey, since i'm in a relationship, i'm never gonna talk to you again. its the, hey, i'm better than you because i have someone i'm infatuated with, and dont want to talk to anyone, kinda attitude. I've realized i've lost 3 really good friends in the past 9 months because of it. or at least i thought they were really good friends, but who knows. i mean, we went from the , hey wats up, to hanging out all the time, now we're to the point of " so yea, hey" kinda relationship. i hate when people change for someone, i mean, yea, you have to change a lil at least, but you can't block everyone else out, you have to keep your friends, because you may not always be in a relationship with this person, then who are you going to turn to if you blocked all of your friends out the first week you started dating? specially when you claim to be desperatly in love, after a week of dating. i can almost guarentee, unless you've been friends for some time, you're not gonna have a good relationship, and if you do and decide to get married, its not gonna be the greatest thing in your life. but whatever, ugggg, it just makes me so mad, that i've lost 3 friends because they ditched me when they got into a relationship. whatever, vbs is good, cant wait for tonight, i get to blow my nose on my sister!

well just got home from work, forgot to clock out, its okay though, it'll be fixed in the morning, um, work sucked, but since it sucked i'm not gonna talk about it. lets see, i would appreciate it if people were still praying for my friend, prayers are always welcome, i'm glad they're alright, um, VBS starts tomorrow... well today now, church is in a few hours, its gonna be weird in the fellowship hall, cus it hasnt been that way in over a year, its gonna bring back lots of memories of when i first moved here, specially since its summer. um, not much else going on, i'm excited to be serengetti betty, its gonna rock! not much going on, guess i'll check in later when i'm not tired and grumpy, oh, and susie, i'm sorry if i've been grumpy, well i know i have, and i'm sorry, i really do love having you home, and i dont want you to go back, but its meant to be! love all ya'll and remember, "Know God" *bible point for VBS day 1, have a great night!

um, come to realization, that I love my friends, and i really want everyone to be praying, specially for someone in particular, i wont say name's and i wont say what happened, but i'm just very glad that they're alive today, and i if "they" were to have passed, i would be devistated, crushed, and completely blown away, because i know that God has major plans for you, and without you, i dont know how i would get through some days, you truely brighten my day, make me laugh, and smile, whenever i talk to you! you're one of my best friends, and I know that God kept you here for one particular reason... because he knew how much it would hurt, all the people who love you, especially me, and the people who love you, love you more than you can imagine, because you're caring, honest, and one of the best people i've ever met in my entire life, and i love you!

Oh my Ga, CCC was so awesome! I can't even describe how great it was, i would be able to do it with pictures, but smart one here forgot a camera, so hopefully my cmg will email me pics to be able to post for you. But it was so great, the first day we went to Arrie Ellis's house, who is the mayor of Earl, a town in lincoln county NC. and we did yard work, and painted her porch, and her house, but we didnt finish, then tuesday, we started our 2 day project, which was to fix rotted wood on this lady's porch and in her living room, and it was difficult because it was so much more work than expected with the porch, because the original builder of the porch had no idea what he was doing. but anyway, that took up tuesday and wednesday, then thursday, we got our last full day project, which was to pull up lanolium (sp) and lay new tile on a lady's kitchen floor. Well it was all good, except that the project was about an hour and 15 mins or so away, so we get there around 10:30, the people don't even talk to us, and once we pull up the lanolium, there's the sticky paper stuff stuck to the floor, well being unprepared for this, we start trying to peel it up with crowbars and stuff, (doesnt work very well) then Jason gets there around 1, gives us the wood, and the tiles, which were peel and stick, thank God, and we start laying boards, and we realize that we can't measure, and we cut alot of wood about an inch off, it was bad, but then by 3 we start tiling her floor, and sara and i end up doing most of the tiling, which i dont mind, but the fact that one of the people just sat there looking at me while i was doing it, but we still had a good time i guess, seeing as we got the job done, we didnt get back until 7:30 , and we're supposed to be back to camp no later than 5, and we didnt leave the work site till 6 15, hahaha, jason came to help us again though, but something happened when we were hooking the fridge back up, and a wire to her ice maker got cut, or broke or something, so on friday jason had to go back and fix it... oops. and then on friday, for our half day job's we got to go back to Arrie Ellis' house and finish her porch and house, it was so awesome because she was so funny! but i'll talk about the people now i guess, starting off was Chris, our camp director, he was goofy, and was good at conversation, but we didnt' get to talk much, Faith, was awesome, she was a Major group leader, and a funny, funny sweet girl, we're staying in touch, then Jason, who was my major group leader, we had our good conversations about his first year as staff, and my first year as a camper, and how he felt that i would be good at a staff member and encouraged me to apply. And he was just so awesome to talk to, and really inspiring too, he eneded up falling asleep friday night at one of the tables, it was cute. then Amanda, who was our program coordinator, who helped jason alot, and she was just really inspiring to me, and really sweet, can't wait to talk to her again, then Houston, who was such a dork, he's like the....uh, can't describe him, he's just very unique, and awesome though too, even though all of the girls, well not all becasue it wasn't me, were like all over him.... at GOD CAMP! it made me so mad, cus all they would do is flirt, then lets see, ramsey, our tools person, she was cool,but we didnt' really talk much unless she was reading a bed time story, or waking me up. haha. then Cameron, who was the first person i talked to i believe, i sat next to him at lunch, and come to find out he was in my cmg, or Christian mission group, who i was paired with all week to do the projects, he was cool, and hope we get together over the summer and hang out, and maybe go visit miss. ellis. then Sara, who was also in my cmg, and was such an awesome girl, i love her, and i hope we get together this week like we're planning, but if not, i'm gonna see her before she goes to college, then Thalia, who was also in my cmg, she was cool but said some oddball stuff, but we still love her. then Dennis, who goes to IPUM but we never really talked, and he was in my cmg, and was funny, cameron had a ball making fun of him all week, then george, who was our driver, who was awesome and helped us out so much this week. and then Matt, who was cool, he also goes to ipum, and we just hung out alot during the week too. Lauren who is cameron's sister, was awesome too, she was really nice and i enjoyed her company, we're gonna go to the mall one day, then allyson, who was katie's bunk buddy, but she and i shared some good warm fuzzy's on the board. then Kari, who was my bunk buddy, she was so funny and sweet, we prayed for eachother every night, and we just inspired eachother everymorning as we got up, it was great. well that's all i'm gonna write for now seeing as this to me seems like a novel already, but i just cant express how much fun i had, well gonna go! love ya'll

THREE NAMES I GO BY:
1. Kristy
2. Kristy kreme/ kristpitykreme
3. nople

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD:
1. Kristpitykreme
2. youmadeoutwithwho
3. Waitwah

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. ankles
3. nose

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Stomach/waist
2. Thighs
3. Upper arms

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. Irish
3. Canadian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Never finding my true love
2. being raped
3. being forced out of my relationship with God

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Lip Gloss/ Make up
2. Cell phone
3. hair tie

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. flower *in my hair*
2. underwear
3. shorts

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Hawk Nelson
2. Lifehouse
3. Ryan Cabrera

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Right Here, or Take me , by Hawk Nelson
2. You and me, or Breathing, by Lifehouse
3. True, by Ryan Cabrera

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. curiosity
2. humor
3. lots and lots of love

THREE TRUTHS:
1. I listen to my heart more than my head
2. I am terrified of everything
3. I've lived in Rancho Cucamonga California

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Talented
2. Love's God
3. Love's me more than I can fathom

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Swimming/ Diving/ Playing Waterpolo
2. Dancing
3. Singing to my hearts content when no one is watching

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Leave for CCC
2. Talk to some cool people before I go
3. Talk to that "Special Someone"

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. History Education (Teaching)
2. Athletic Training
3. Soccer Mom

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Anywhere with you
2. Europe, anywhere there
3. South America, anywhere in there

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Dillon
2. MacKenzie
3. Hannah Grace

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Tell the person I love I love them
2. Leave a good impression *lasting legacy*
3. Show everyone How much I love my lord God

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY/GIRL:
1. I'm a sucker for chick flicks
2. I cry at stupid unimportant things *i'm an emotional girl...*
3. I love make~up

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Shane West
2. The guy from "Chasing Liberty"
3. Jason from hawk nelson

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Brian
2. Susie
3. someone else who loves me




Hey Guys, Can't wait for CCC tomorrow, its going to rock!

I'm finding my way back to sanity, Again
Though i really dont know what i'm gonna do when i get there
so take a breath and hold on tight,
spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

'Cause i hanging, on every word you say
and even if you dont wanna speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
'cause i want nothing more than to
sit ouside heaven's door
and listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yea
where i wanna be

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind
into the truth and i'm
trying to identify the voices in my head
God i wish it were you
let me feel one more time
what it feels like to feel
and break these calluses off of me one more time

"Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
and even if you dont wanna speak tonight
its alright, alright with me
Cause i want nothing more than to sit outside your door
and listen to you breathing
its where i wanna, where i wanna be, yeah

I dont want a thing from you
I bet you're tired of me
waiting for the scraps to fall
off of your table on to the ground
Cause i just wanna be here .... now

Breathing, By Lifehouse,
I love this song, and it just brings back so many memories from so long ago! I dont know, I'm sad that me and Q had a fight today, but its just hard for each of us to figure out who the other one is, i think we both have just changed so much, that we want it to go back to the way it was before she left, but we've both grown up so much and its just hard to adjust to eachother now, but its okay, i have faith, well i'm excited for CCC, its going to be great, i have no idea whats going to happen there, but it'll be fun. well not much else to write, but yea, ya'll have a good night, day, and week until i see/talk to you next, oh yea, dont im me or call me this next week unless its an emergency, because i'm not supposed to have my phone in the first place!
love ya'll

okay, so sunday night was CAR~HAZY, to put it lightly, well brian now has clear duct tape holding his bumper on, and i forgot to say how when we tried to go to brian's house, we pulled into someone elses driveway thinking it was his, and this creapy lady came and yelled at us, well jason, me and emu booked it outa there. okay , well here are some pics of the hawk nelson concert, because it was totally awesome!

Guitarist, and bassist

The drummer

Jason, the lead singer of hawk nelson

Oh wow! This was honestly the CRAZIEST night of my life! Twas grand. Started out by going to Hawk Nelson, and btw was a Great concert if they had finished their set. But it's okay because i still love them. Then Susie Brett and myself went to starbucks, and just hung out for a lil while. Then I went to Coldstone and helped them close, and afterwards Emily, Jason, and Myself all went up to Toads house aka Brian, and we made a giant doughnut topped cookie, and hung out and watched them play DDR. then after Kelly went home, we had this grand Idea of going to walmart, and by the way, he lives in the boondocks, (ledford area) and we hit a pole, and it was great, we duct taped his bumper back onto the car, (this is the shortened version by the way) and STILL go to Wal~Mart. get food, then go back to toads house, and watch emporer's new groove, where me and Toad end up texting eachother for the longest time, it was a GREAT conversation. lol. and then when emily and tyler were asleep, Doug, Toad and Me decide to go to kelly's house to let toad say bye for the week, and come back, and get a great welcome from Emily, where she not so politely tells me to shut up, when i was being quite, and all while doug is in his boxer/whitie titie's wrapped in a blanket so no one can see, rolling on the kitchen floor, and then we watch some cartoons, and i pass out finally at 7:30 or so, and wake up at around 8, and leave toads house, go take pics of the sign that we hit, and me and emily go to Chik Fil A for "Breakfast" only not, we had lunch, but it was 10, so we ate, then i come home, and haven't slept yet, that was my adventure last night~ if you want to hear more about the car accident just ask, cus there was way more to it than i've detailed, to keep Brian in the safe, lol. love ya'll and here are some nice pics of our lovely adventure.....

That's just a cool street name

The pole displaced by the car, we love the malibu

That's just a funny brand of stuff, dont know what it is, but it's at walmart

Tyler and Brian In walmart.... like the underwear in the background?

Me and emily trying to be cool, okay, well at least i'm trying

Brian before ANYTHING had happened

Brian at 5 30 AM, right before the trip to kelly's

our pole was broken and knocked about 10 feet from the cement holding it in....and bent for that matter, good thing the only major injury was a skinned nose.

doug in his blanket talking to Daisy, brians dog,

brian buying his duct tape to fix his bumper

trying to duct tape the bumper back on

the guys's playing DDR

um, not much to say since the last post, just had some fun at work last night, we had a water fight, and then after, Jason and Brian and Me all went to Carolina Diner and had coffee, and My true self came out when i broke the saucer...hahahah, it was great. um, going to see HAWK NELSON tonight! I'm so freggin excited, and then i don't know for sure, but i know brian was saying something about going to his house afterwards, if it happens it will be fun, who know's though. um, just kicking it with summer and all that greatness! lol. well i'm gonna go get ready for my concert, have a GREAT night

Okay, my sister says that putting lyrics to songs is a cheap shot for writing blogs. So here it goes. Um, not much on my list of things done today, or left to do for that matter, i did paper mache an elephant butt, that was fun, and i traced some cool things for vbs. Um, I'm freaking out because i have the biggest zit of my life, its horrible, its not really a zit, its a bug bite, but it looks hideous, um, what else, Um, I have 3 manager shifts next week, thats exciting, I'm nervous and scared, but know that it will work out good. I'm excited for Carrie's baby shower, that's gonna be awesome, and i'm a lil upset bout my mom getting married, even though she's been with this guy for quite some time, i just have to tell her i'm happy for her though. what else, um, i'm addicted to the song "Fall to Pieces" by Avril Lavigne right now, cus it just explains almost everything that i feel right now, um, not much else that i can think of. um, i still like someone who i've had a crush on for a long time, and we were supposed to hang out last night, but i had to work, we were gonna go play pool, but its okay, maybe some other time. um, not much else to say, so I'm going to leave you with this.....
"Last night I dreamed I ate a ten-pound marshmallow, and when I woke up the pillow was gone."

jeez, i hate myself sometimes, i screw up some of the best moments, i feel like alyvia when she said "I'm a leach" (ask me later) but i mean, some of the stupid things i say sometimes should get me shot, like when i tell the person who i look to most, that nothings wrong, when i really just want to tell them the truth. But of course, i'm stupid and tell them that nothing's bothering me, and that i'm okay. when inside i just want to scream....
but on a better note, and not to offend any of my amish folks, but here we go...
"Amish Paradise"As I walk through the valley where I harvest my grainI take a look at my wife and realize she's very plainBut that's just perfect for an Amish like meYou know, I shun fancy things like electricityAt 4:30 in the morning I'm milkin' cowsJebediah feeds the chickens and Jacob plows... foolAnd I've been milkin' and plowin' so long thatEven Ezekiel thinks that my mind is goneI'm a man of the land, I'm into disciplineGot a Bible in my hand and a beard on my chinBut if I finish all of my chores and you finish thineThen tonight we're gonna party like it's 1699We been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseI've churned butter once or twiceLiving in an Amish paradiseIt's hard work and sacrificeLiving in an Amish paradiseWe sell quilts at discount priceLiving in an Amish paradiseA local boy kicked me in the butt last weekI just smiled at him and turned the other cheekI really don't care, in fact I wish him well'Cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in hellBut I ain't never punched a tourist even if he deservedAn Amish with a 'tude? You know that's unheard ofI never wear buttons but I got a cool hatAnd my homies all I agree I look good in black... foolIf you come to visit, you'll be bored to tearsWe haven't even paid the phone bill in 300 yearsBut we ain't really quaint, so please don't point and stareWe're just technologically impairedThere's no phone, no lights, no motorcarNot a single luxuryLike Robinson CarusoIt's as primitave as can beWe been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseWe're just plain and simple guysLiving in an Amish paradiseThere's no time for sin and viceLiving in an Amish paradiseWe don't fight, we all play niceLiving in an Amish paradiseHitchin' up the buggy, churnin' lots of butterRaised a barn on Monday, soon I'll raise anotherThink you're really rightous? Think you're pure in heart?Well, I know I'm a million times as humble as thou artI'm the pious guy the little Amlettes wanna be likeOn my knees day and night scorin' points for the afterlifeSo don't be vain and don't be whinyOr else, my brother, I might just have to get medieval on your heinieWe been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseWe're all crazy MennonitesLiving in an Amish paradiseThere's no cops or traffic lightsLiving in an Amish paradiseBut you'd probably think it bitesLiving in an Amish paradise

Okay, so the day i've been waiting for for 12 years, the day i become a SENIOR! its so awesome to know that i've gone 12 years without dropping out!, that's quite an accomplishment...well, at least for me. haha. well i'm so excited to see what the world has to offer me this summer, and the rest of my life. cool news, i get to be shift leader on saturday, meaning, i'm in charge of the store! SWEET! hahaha, ya'll come and visit me! um, had fun with my sister alicia and niece Aimee, and i'm glad susie is home. while everyone was here, we painted my house, it looks good, just a few more coats and we're good to go, well not much more to say, but hopefully soon i ACTUALLY get my puppy, i've gotten pictures and visited him, but miss him! hahaha, i'm lame. well check ya'll later, love ya

Proverbs 28:2 ~ When ther eis moral rot within a nation, its government topples easily, but when there is knowledgeable leaders, there is stability.
I. Laws of Leadership
1. Nothing happens until Someone provides leadership for it.
"Everything rises or falls on leadership"
Greatest problem: Lack of knowledge
2. Leadership is Influence
Biblical Definition: Someone with God given ability and responsibility to influence a group of God's people to accomplish God's purpose for that group.
3. The test of leadership is "Is anybody following you?"
4. The foundation of leadership is Character NOT charisma
"Remember your leaders who spoke the word of God to you.
Consider the outcome of their way of life, and imitate their faith"
Hebrews 13:7-8

3 Characteristics of good leaders
The have a message worth Remembering
they have a lifestyle worth considering
they have a faith worth imitating
5. Leadership Can be learned
"Keep putting into practice all you learned from me and heard from me and
saw me doing, and the God of peace will be with you."
Philippians 4:9
6. The moment you stop Learning you stop Leading.
" Since a dull ax requires great strength, sharpen the blade. That's the
value of wisdom; it helps you succeed." Eccl. 10:10
II. Background to Nehemiha's story
Where: Jerusalem
The Problem: City walls needed rebuilding
Nehemiah's Occupation: Cup bearer to King
III. Why Did God Choose Nehemiah as a Leader?
Nehemiha was sensitive to the needs around him
Nehemiah was Dependable
" Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is doshonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. syou you have not been trustworthy in handling wordly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? and if you have not been trustworthy with someone elses property, who will give you property of your own? no servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money."
Luke 16 10-13
3. Nehemiah was Available
God is not looking for Ability in leaders as much as he is looking for Credibility, Dependability, and Availablity.
My prayer is that God uses me whenever, however, and that he will break my heart with the things that break his heart, to make me closer to him, and to be a leader in everything that I do, " For I can do all things through Christ who strenthens me"

um , not much has gone on since my last post, except i lost my boyfriend, a brother, and some sleep, but nothing major.... none of those do i want to talk about, so i'll talk about something cool, um, The base ball game a few nights ago was wierd, well first off, there was an entire soccer team cheering, which was awesome, but they were really loud and kinda um , nicely put, annoying. but then after, i saw shawn, who sits in front of me in history at weaver, and i saw Jordan, who sat next to me in geometry last year! um, then since i hate being at home, i went over to brett and carrie's house *thank you btw for letting me* and we watched "That Thing You Do" it was awesome, then i came home, and that was bout it. I'm pretty psyched up for VBS this year, I'm leader of the Games for the Elementary age, it's cool, but some of the things are corny, but like GIGI the Giraffe says, I have to stick my neck out for God .... *WOW* hahahahaha, i'm so roaring for that! lol. um, yea, thats about it. I'm kinda always frustrated the last few weeks, just a lot of things have been getting on my nerves, even stupid inanimate objects like cones on the road, or the mouse pad, or my alarm clock. but i'm just ready for school to be over, and i'm ready for so much stuff to be over, and for more new stuff to begin, like senior year, graduation, getting a car, and just so much more, i'm just tired of being the young one who can't do anything, or stupid stuff. I realized that almost everyone in my c/a class hates me too, cus the only time i talk is to tell them to shut up and be respectful to the sub, and what not, but whatever, i dont need for people to like me, i just wish they didnt hate me. but yea, I'm just really tired, but can't sleep, havent been able to since last saturday, yet here i am sitting on the computer, that could be why i dont sleep. lol. well since no one reads this i'm going to go CRAZY!!!! Jkeowripowajif;oau[0iewajnif;oeaof jeiowa;fuiepwaufjioe;waj fiodaufjio;dajfiepawfjieawjf iopanfh;owaeu fio;eaufioew;a jfio;auf ewi JFEIWOAU FI;OAEJ FISLUFIO;ASF UJIO jaifo;jaio;fe jao;fjia;fjeiwao;fueiawo;fjioa;sdfu doaw;fjoi; aufdaoehwfuewafjsidao yuf iauiof; jaiowe;fjkdlsafj op;nfoiaj iogf uyawilfjweio;a utgfia @!%$EW^$*&^%*J#^$#@%!$%$&*(&*(*&%^^%$@%^$#^%^&&*(*(^&^%#^$ @#%$# &^*& ) )*&* ^% @$#^%*&)_( &^* &$%#$@&^$*&^(*&^^%$ *& )( )*^%#$ ^% $* &)(*) _(_*(&^&# $% ) this is about how i feel right now! okay, i'm done, and out, if you need me i'll be in my corner

Think freely. Smile often. Tell those you love, you do. Hope. Grow. Give. Give in. Keep a promise. Laugh hard. Reach out. Let someone in. Give a hug. Slow down. See the sunrise. Listen to rain. Have faith. Enjoy. Make some mistakes. Learn from them. Explore the unknown. Take chances. Tell the truth. Date somebody completely wrong for you. Say no. spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a buttface how you really feel. Let someone know what they are missing. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life.

um, because my prom got cancelled, i just ended up going and getting my hair done anyway! lol. i'm lame. i'm not looking at the camera cus stupid people call my name then take my pic! hahaha

Ozzy,"seriously, this thing just came out of his neck, and just like....eww."... Brett "Really?, you've gotta be kiddin me!"

huh, anything interesting in there?

the blind leading the blind

the gang, Miss tere, andrew, alex, ozzy, scott, sara, brett, rebecca, anario

lets just get around this problem shall we?

sara, ozzy, and katie

ozzy killing sara so she cant move away!

"Look at that, Whos da bomb?! What now home skillet?!"
i'm gonna get smacked for these nice blackmail pics now, but its okay!

come on ozzy, show me your dance moves!

platapus lips?! i'm rockin out thinkin i'm cool!

Dont hurt me!.... PLEAZE!

The Game we never won during the famine, we got a blind, mute, fingerless, and a gimp

Okay, I'm finally going to start taking my own advise and stop getting my hopes up. I was asked to prom on friday, and of course , i said yes, because he's a cool guy and a friend. so sunday i go out and buy a prom dress, and all that stuff, and my dad doesnt like it, so he say's he'll buy me the prom dress i really want....which is 180 dollars by the way, and i was supposed to go get it today, and on my way home, brian calls me and says that he can't get me a ticket because it's too late, So now that i've made hair appointments, nail appointments, tanning appointment, make up appointment, I have to cancel all of them, and once again get fees because i cant show up for them.... i know its not his fault, but its still sad because i really wanted to go with him, but its for a reason, i guess, i mean, i just have to trust that there's a reason why i cant go, so i'm gonna go try and figure out what that reason is.

I want to thank everyone who did something yesterday... personal shout outs to Katie, Maliha, Tere, Carrie, Brett, Scott, Vick, Amy, Laura, Kevin, Andrew, Ozzy, Hayden, Samantha, and last but not least, Rebecca! Oh my gosh, that was the greatest birthday I've EVER had. It started out with Katie and maliha coming to my house friday morning...*intending on waking me up* and sang "shake shake shake seniora, shake it all the time" and they baked me a cough *muffin mess* it was supposed to be a muffin cake, but it didnt cook so it was all messy and batter~e. and then they drove me to school and hung out with me till the bell rang...it was awesome, and i cant forget my birthday halo and sparkler! THABK YOU! Then carrie calls me at noon and says..."so what are you doing tonight?" and i just told her that me and my dad were gonna go have dinner, so she invite me to invite my dad and stuff to go have some dinner, and what not, so i call my dad, and he tells me he has to work, so i call carrie to tell her that, and she just says that she'll pick me up around 6. So they come, and rebecca's the one standing at my door to pick me up, so i find it schetchy. so i get in the car, and am like...what are you doing to me?!!! and they're just like, we're going to dinner, and rebecca's staying with us so thats why she's here, so i say "okay cool" and they take me to Elizabeths pizza amd we get there and see miss tere drive by, so i KNOW something is going on. So we get there, and Ray, tere, vick, amy, scott, laura, kevin, ozzy, andrew, hayden , and samantha are all there for a surprise bithday party. omg, that's the best thing i've ever gotten in my life. so we eat some EXCELLENT itallian food, and i open my presents, and i get cool gift cards, and a "Kristy Kreme" tee shirt, cus thats my nick name...like the doughnut! and so we finish eating, and the guys go to their softball game, and girls go to "Ganache" which i do say so myself, is the BEST dessert I've EVER had! and we just sat there and talked, while i was attacked by kids, it was great fun! but seriously, it was the greatest birthday of my life, if my dad and sister, and stuff could have been there. but even so, best day of my life, i've never felt more loved in my entire life. but i came home crying i was so happy because no one has ever done something like that for me before, and i havent had a party since i was 6, so it was REALLY special. but i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who loves me, because i'm so incredibly happy right now about everything thats happened since friday morning!

True Love Waits~ Soul Jahz, one of my all time favorite songs

You've walked this road
so many times
and you swore you knew your way
But now you're looking in
persuasive eyes
and you don't know what to say
when he tells you he loves you
when he tells you needs you
when he says it feels so right,
it can't be wrong
when he says it's the right time
everythings gonna be just fine
so you know where your heart belongs
so believe that true love waits
dont let anyone change your ways
look em all straight in the face
and tell him no matter what i'll remain the same
Dont wanna be decieved
see I've found the key
cant you see that i believe yea i believe
that true love waits
waits for me

You told yourself
you've been here before
you see her face
then you open the door
now its up to you
so what you gonna do?
You love her with a smile
and then you love her with a kiss
somewhere you both knew
it would come to this
is it really worth it
when she tells you she loves you
when she tells you she needs you
but in your heart you still believe
True love waits
dont let anyone change your ways
look em all straight in the face
let em all know I'll remain the same
dont wanna be decieved
see I've found the key
cant you see that I believe
yea I believe that true love
waits for me
waits for me

True love would say " I'll be your true love if you'll wait"
True love would say "if you wait for me I'll wait for you my love, my love"
True love waits,
and you gotta keep the faith
With God you're gonna stay strong
With hope you're gonna carry on.

i scream you scream, we all scream for ice cream!

okay, so yesterday was pretty good, no major complaints. except that for our church not supporting the youth, but what can you do? it just makes me mad that they want the youth to grow, and all this stuff about youth ministry, yet NO ONE came yesterday to help support one of the biggest things we do all year. this is the one event we look forward to, talk about, and pray about all year. whatever though, we made a lot of money for the famine, and can't wait to do it again wednesday in kernersville. i'm bored, and tired, but i'm so tired that i cant sleep. have you ever felt that way? i know you have and dont lie. "i'm not gonna lie to you"...hahaha susie, good times. I cant wait for vbs either, i'm so excited to be in charge of games, that's like the things that kids look forward to most....cept for snacks. lol. I just hope that I do it well, but it doesnt really matter how i do it, because it all comes from God in the end right? right. um, not much more to say, just listening to some of my favorite music from like, the 8th grade. well i'm out, love ya'll, and call me if you wanna do anything, i'm bored outa my mind!

lalalalalaliveoutloud~

Score, i went on "the zone" this morning to promote the coldstone/world vision fundraiser this morning, it was really weird, seeing as me and brett had to do this call center thing, and it was really bad, cus there were fake phones ringing as i was trying to talk, and i was scared, and almost froze, and i didnt have time to like tell about the famine how i planned, cus i htought we would sit down and do a small little interview thing, it was TERRIBLE, but we got some shockwave names in there! lol. um, not much else going on, just gonna go get me legal to drive!!!!!!!! finally. well watch out, i'm gonna be on the road! love ya'll and have a good weekend, and if you live in the triad area....come to the coldstone tomorrow from 1-5 the on on eastchester and penny!

I am slowly going crazy 123456 switch, crazy going slowly am I 654321 switch

wow, only 2 days into the week, and it already feels like it should be friday. But its all dandy, no major complaints here. Weird night at work last night, if anyone cares to know what happened, comment and i'll let you know, but i'm not going to post it. lets see, I cant wait till saturday for the fundraiser, and friday cus i get to go onto the radio.... in the studio! how awesome is that, i'm thinking someone else should go with me, like uh, carrie, or brett, or katie. but i can handle it! um, not much going on, waiting on tomorrow's message, and worship, not much else going on, love ya'll, Brett, update your blog...please...i dont really care cus i talk to you alot, but that way i have something to do while i'm on the internet...lol. i'm lame!