College/youthgroup

oh my goodness... an update!!! AHHHH... haha. Well been in school for a week now, its going good. not much to complain about except for 8am classes, homework, parking, and food. but i mean, i'll get over it. So I officially own a car now... my dad bought his truck on saturday and took the money out of my account. Lets see, oh, I start working wiht the Jr. High kids in a week, I'm excited, if there are any words of wisdom, just let me know, i mean, I'm all ears!!! haha, well class starts in 12 mins, so I have to book it across campus! love ya



<333 Kristy

:)

I'm more tan than you.... prolly not, but i'm more tan than i used to be. thats all. Youth tonight. Sounds great to me. join me if you'd like.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


Did anyone say therapy?

I'm a lifeguard now, come see me at emerald pointe! :)

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


i love myself sometimes for finding this useless crud. :)

news?

okay, so a trip to dallas for DECA nationals is similar to going to the olympics and tripping, but as brett put it, at least i got to the olympics right? haha, in first place that is :) . well got back from that, then went to the beach, thats all thats gone on in my life. yup. thats it. well, i got the new B429 cd. now thats it. i'll fill in later.

I'm Pathetic

I'm pathetic, Happy Birthday to Me. Toby Mac, Third Day concert tonight. Join me if you'd like, I also have a Birthday Cake, It's going to be yummy, Call if you want some. I think that's all for my post. Love to all.

stayed out with you all night

one week left. exactly.

I'm Dying

yup, thats right, i'm dying.

upcoming plans

SATURDAY
Meeting tomorrow at Coldstone- 10AM
Dad leaves for Germany tomorrow- 1PM
Colorguard Competition Tomorrow-3:30 PM
SUNDAY
Church-10:45AM
Painting room for nephew due monday- 1:30PM
Do Katies makeup- 4pm
Sleep as long as possible-5pm
MONDAY
Mid terms- 9AM
Colorguard practice
TUESDAY
Midterms
Colorguard practice
work
WEDNESDAY
No school
Sleep in as long as possible
Youth
THURSDAY
Dad gets back from Germany
Colorguard practice
FRIDAY
school
Work
Saturday
Meet at SDUB at 6AM, colorguard competition in ROCK HILL
SUNDAY
Church


so thats my schedule, now no one can say.... hey, what are you doing... because, i have clearly defined how my schedule is planned out, however i left out key points of homework and senior project time. see everyone sunday
ps.... countdowns
SPRING BREAK '06, MIAMI- 13 Days
I turn 18- 22 Days
DECA INTERNATIONALS, DALLAS - 35 days
I Graduate - 71 Days

PS, happy birthday brett, woulda called, but i was at work. love you though!!!!

bleak.... maybe?

okay, update.... maybe? .... :)
lets see, news since the polar plunge.... got baptized... that was awesome... that's about it till this weekend.
alright, great news.... something thats going to make me change my major to marketing if i'm going to be this good at it. as many of my peeps know... i'm all about some DECA, i'm like... wooo hooo for DECA, i mean, i even capitalize it.... thats how great it is.... :) so starting about the 3 weeks before competition i guess.... i started preparing people for state competition. i mean, i've spent endless days at school until about 6 or 7 just copying and stapling tests, and making sure that they were relevent to the catagories in which my "crew" of people that i was in charge of helping to prepare.... my crew consisted of 12 people in food Marketing Associate level, and myself and 1 other person in Quick serve Restaurant Management. so trying to get people prepped for a competition they have never been to was pretty difficult for them to take it seriously. so for three weeks, i pour my blood and sweat into other people for them to do good. .... finally sunday before competition, i finally have a few hours to practice a test.... basically i look over half of it.... read a few competencies, and laugh over lemon wedges at panera. :) . then its back to helping others until thursday. I dress and show up to school at 9 oclock. we head over to the sheraton and try not to have a nervous breakdown as i tell mrs. chapman that i should have stayed home because i'm not prepared. so thursday night is when all competetors... the 5,000 that were there, all take the test in one of the 12 or so categories at state competition. i come back to my room crying because i took all the time to take my test... feeling as though i've failed. so mrs. chapman tells me to suck it up. we go to an awards ceremony for DECA lifetime achievments, and then head to the DECA dance, only, me and laela ditch it and go get sushi instead.... it was yummy. then we head to the 45 mins of the dance that was left... i never knew how white i was, until i went to dance, and figured out i can't shake my butt as good as the other girls :) so i go to my room, chat for awhile, then go to sleep. i wake up at 8, take a cold shower due to the thousands of kids trying to get ready at the same time as myself. so needless to say, i didn't shave. i go to my role plays, to find that i'm the only one tearing my papers, (something that we are taught to do.... give the judge something tangible, business cards, coupons, etc.) the kid across from me looks up and says, "you're gonna win aren't you" i laughed, then got told not to talk. :) so i do my role play, and beast it.... i rocked the socks out of it... or so i thought at the time. then i have to do another one, about product service management.... and come to expect, my role play concerned my work of business. ... freshness..... only it was about sandwiches. so of course.... i use my coldstone "stuff" and stay my alloted time of 10 mins... they kicked me out. i dont think that's ever happened, until now.... so i leave, feeling ehhh about myself... i was thinking, i can't believe she put me in this category. i go on my merry lil way... vote for the state officers, and then head over to the mall to make mrs. chapman a build a bear for her birthday... we have a party and what not.... we get back for an awards ceremony honoring the top award winners for every category..... needless to say, when they got to my category, i was skeptical. I waited for my name.... i was called 15th, i was so nervous... so i knew that i was in the top 20 out of the 500 in my category for my test. i was so happy.... i ran up to stage of course , to be the last up there.... its okay though... then they preceed into the top awards for each one of the role plays. they call my name just as i'm sitting down.... so SW goes wild again cheering for me, and i run up again to be the last one up again. then Niraj Shah was the only other one to get awards that night.... we felt bad, yet extatic. it was awesome. then saturday.... 99% of SW received proficiency in the state... meaning they got at least 225 points out of 298. so that was good. then we packed our stuff, and headed for the STATE awards ceremony.... they come to my category once again.... they only call the top ten... then depending on the category, range from 3-4th place winners. mine had 4 trophies. the announce that they're starting the QSRM category.... i duck down.... embarrased for not getting an award..... yet eagerly waiting for them to call my name.... they call me 6th.... i'm at least in the top 10. WOW . i get up there last. once again.... theme of the weekend. i get up there, get the medalian.... they start the countdown, 4th, 3rd, 2nd.... the only place left is first. .... the president of DECA for the state is standing behind me.... he leans over my shoulder and wispers.... "good luck in dallas" which is where INTERNATIONAL competition is..... i say international because people from all over the world are there obviously..... then, they call my name.... i FREAK out.... i start almost crying.... i won 1st.... FIRST place.... wow.... how awesome..... then for Retail Merchandising management level is announced... we had 2 people in that category as well, both people had the chance to go to international last year.... laela made 4th place, and niraj made 1st.... so mrs. chapman was extatic, she had 3 people advance to the next level, and can now finally go to competition with us, its so awesome... i can't wait..... so that was my weekend. i hate to brag, and maybe that's why i didn't say anything on sunday.... but it just hit me that I won..... ME, girl who helped others..... maybe thats what God wanted, me to use my strength to help others. because let me say, most days, when people would show up late, or not at all, while that whole afternoon, or weekend, i had spent trying to prepare stuff to prepare them paid off. whatever it was.... it worked. and i'm too excited. never felt this good..... i have a HUGE trophy, and plenty of medals. :) boasting over.

FREEZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay.... so i helped to support special olympics today.... that was fun... wanna know how? by jumping into oak hollow lake in the snow!!!!!!! omg, so cold.... can't move my lips... however they are a very pretty purple, even after taking a shower, getting put into an ambulance with a heating blanket, drinking coffee and hot chocolate, nothing just seems to be working, seeing as i have pnemonia!!!!!! haha. it was really fun though, i mean, jumping into a lake that's 33* and its snowing, not many people have that story to tell, but i do.... and i did it with my boss! how awesome is that?! i mean, it was really cool to see how much money was raised for the special olympics.

So.... tonight, along with jumping into a freezing lake, i'm getting baptised in the tub that also has no water heater, so i'm basically going to die after i get baptised... but i'm really excited. I know everyone thinks that because i'm susie's sister, i've been baptised and i'm holy and what not, because she's been so involved in everything. but i've always had the choice of if i did want to get baptized, and its always been my decision to go to church, or not, or how i want to live my life.... and in the past few weeks, i mean, i had this phase from about uh..... feb. to jan. where i wanted nothing to do with church, i just went because i didnt want people medling in my life.... so i went. but since about the first of the year, something hit me, it was like... what the heck are you doing, you can't do this on your own... and so i got over my pride and started to go to go... and my life just got 10x's better, no joke. things just started falling into place. and these past few weeks we've been having that video service with Seacoast church in CH. SC. and they kept talking about being baptised and what not, and i was like.... thats the final step i need to take... i've personally accepeted christ as my savior, i mean, i did when i was in the first grade. but i never outwardly showed it. i was afraid of what my family would or wouldn't say, i was just not ready to make the commitment to say i was a christian. but so much has happened in my life that i just feel that i need to let people know, well if you didn't know... because these past few years, i've acted christian, but didnt really qualify myself as one. but yea, i guess that's it, since this blog is def. a novel right about now.

a few broken bones never hurt anyone.... or did they?

so 3 broken ribs and pnemonia later, man that was a great superbowl. :) i had fun, hope everyone else did. Kev. officially moved sunday... i'm a lil upset. we were supposed to have coffee before he left.... i guess its gonna have to go to brett now. :) well i guess that's it for me, i mean, seeing as its 10 and i have to be to church soon! haha. well yea.

SUPERBOWL XL

STEELERS, SEAHAWKS tomorrow night, see you there!!! wooo hooo , the steelers made it to the superbowl. how great is that?! i know it is. well , no homework this weekend, i dont think, other than starting my senior project, great fun. well thats it for me, see you at church sunday.

:)

So how about i'm excited for the game i'm doing tonight. wooo hoo. okay thats all i have to say... oh, and bring your bible to youth. oh, and i need people's phone numbers, i'm trying to plan something, but i need everyone's help. love ya'll.

huh...

basically i found out what happened to my little brother a week ago tonight. i havent stopped crying since i got home. i wish i had known. i'm just glad that what happened happened and he is were he is, because basically i dont want to lose another friend. i've lost way too many. and i'm not about to lose him too. well can't cry type anymore. i hope everyone is doing well. call me or what not if anyone wants to talk.

so basically definately for sure

okay, so my computer for sure hates me, along with my ipod. none of my music from my ipod wants to transfer onto my laptop. its sucks, i'm actually pretty mad about it. i think i'm just going to throw the stupid things at brett and be like.... can you fix it? haha. i'm pathetic. i got it the first time, but cant figure it out this time. haha. whatev. on another note....

First Winterguard competition today. we did AWESOME, the 36 hour weekend practice worked really well. for southwest's first year, we placed 2nd and moved up a class into scholastic AAA which is basically as good as you can get without being in independent where those people are CRAZY nazi-ish about colorguard. bad reference, but very true. oh, and i feel like a clown. i've never worn so much makeup in my life. its actually really pretty far away. but up close.... isshhhhhhhh not good. my eyes are like green with lots of eyeliner and glitter, and i have 10x's too much blush, and you can't tell that i have freckles with how much foundation i have on. i'm scared of myself. haha. but it's pretty from far away as i said before.

um. lets see what else. oh, i start at weaver again on tuesday. i dont know whethere to be excited, or depressed about it. i dont know anyone going this semester. its actually really depressing. but whatev again. no real complaints, just means i have to find people to get along with. haha. like that'll happen in my lifetime.

okay, thats it for me, i'm going to bed. its 2:12 according to my clock, therefore, way too late fro me to be up if i plan on going to church in the morning. whoo hooo!!!!

wooT

okay, appologizing for the past...uh, i dont know... year? okay, i'm not really appologizing for what i said, just the way i said it. wrong i know, how i felt, right... at least for me. i guess i needed that stretch to tell me what i need in life, and how i need to find it. and of course... silly me, answer right in front of my face........ GOD. Gosh, i'm such a dork. so, i was reading James the other day... wednesday morning.... for some reason i was thinking about CCC this past summer, and i remembered the bible verse i read on the longest day of my life.... and i remembered how that verse made me feel after i read it. and it was like..... BOOM right in my chest. it was like, God saying.... "hey, i want you to go through this now.... not later.... you wont come back to me if i do this to you later, specially not next year" and i started thinking about me going to college, and i thought about what has been happening in my life for the past year. and slowly but surely, i've doubted more and more, and i've slowly read less and less of my bible until it hit me that for about the past 2 months, i havent even touched my bible. i havent even brought it to church until last week. its been sitting under the seat in the car..... and the fact that for a month i havent shown up to church. and the fact that i'm glad we didnt have youth for the past two weeks, because i've deliberatly asked to be schedueled, so i had an obligation as to why i couldn't go. but there wasn't any youth... so my plan failed for me.... but worked out in the end.... i guess? anyway.... so backing up a bit. so i was reading this verse in james, and its about persistance. and it was like, i'm running a race.... and i HATE running. but it was how brett put it. and then i was talking to Edwin after youth, and he was just saying how he needed to hear that. and i just started thinking about in less than 5 months, i'm no longer going to be a youth. i'm no longer going to be able to have an affect on the people i'm around the most. but i think through this whole struggle that i've been having, with God, and with people. i KNOW its because someone said.... "Man, this girl needs some patience" because i DEFINATELY learned it this past year. i for sure know never to ask for patience, because htere is no way that this situation is happening to me again. no freakin way. but yeah. i think it hit home the most, when edwin said that to me.... because i've liked him for so long, and for him to have said that i helped him.... that mean SOOOOO much to me.... i dont think anyone has any idea.

on another note.... Mrs. Tere gave me her approval of Edwin. that makes me happy. she's the one i was most worried with. i dont know how brett, carrie, or anyone else feels. but mrs. tere has expressed that she like him, thats good, cus i do too. :) well see everyone tomorrow.... well today, if you want to be specific, but who wants to do that? well love everyone and i'm DEEPLY, DEEPLY SORRY. and i will tell you face to face at youth. or i'll write you a letter. because i might be too afraid. but i do love you!

caitlyn, and me with Jason, the lead singer of building 429. he's aweosome.

katie with the bassit, she was trying to act tuff, but freaked out in the middle of the picture. haha.

me and beau, of Need to Breathe. he knows how to work the stage let me tell ya! haha.

me and the bassist of need to breathe... he has gorgeous teeth. for real.

me and scotty of B429, he's awesome... i think i'm in love with him... oh wait, i'm taken ! haha ( i had to fit that in there somewhere.)

me and the drummer of building 429, he's a really short guy. haha... and very sweaty, it was grosse.

me and paul of building 429, we had a nice conversation about our chucks. it was awesome.

ozzy, katie and me before the concert... it was freezing so ozzy was trying to keep me warm.

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Building 429, need to breathe concert rocked last night. for sure. pictures, obviously posted.... oh , by the way, i have a boyfriend... he's awesome. and love's God. i'm hyped.

yeah, its long, and its how i feel, get over it, or dont read it.

Okay...... this is my realization.............. dont make fun of me, or leave me comments of what i need to do or don't need to do, who i need to listen to, or who i dont... leave a comment of love, or support... don't put me down, and don't empathize, good chance that you have no idea what i really feel, or what i'm going through. don't tell me you know how i feel, because you dont.... now i can get on with my post.....
Okay, I'm a church girl at heart.
this i know for sure...
but i pretend... or don't even pretend anymore...
I dont like church... i dont like religion,
some people have driven me to the point of being agnostic.
i dont like people who are fake about being christian...
that's why i'm writing this post... so that everyone know's that i'm not going to pretend.
i dont like the people who show up to church just to be there...
be there to be there...
dont be there to waste time, because in essance... it wastes my time...
i dont really care who elses time you waste, but dont waste mine.
I'm tired of fake christians. Who you are know who you are...
and dont deny it anymore. fess up and make it known...
your time will come where you have to let your secrets out.
don't go on myspace and post stupid crap like "repost this within 10 mins and God will make a miracle in your life today"
read your bible and get enough facts not to repost that, because you have no idea who is or isn't a christian, but most of all, you have no idea who might be praying for a miracle to happen so that they don't kill themselves that night... they're not christian, they see that post, they repost it, then no miracle... then they hate and curse God because he didn't perform a miracle.....
all you people and you know who i'm talking about... shove it... wherever you want, but dont' post it
dont do what i've been doing for the past year or so,
by hiding behind a mask.
it's not worth it for you,
for the people you love,
and the people you may meet,
because then no one know's who you are, what you want, or anything.
I'm tired of fake fronts,
I'm tired of lies
I'm tired of corruption,
in the government, and in the church
I love life
I will live it to it's fullest
I won't be told i cant fly
because i have wings
I've never stretched my wings because i've had too many expectations on me..
my entire life.
I have humility
I'm showing it now
I'm posting everything that's wrong in my life...
i'm posting everything that bothers me.
I don't like games
and choose not to play...
especially the mind games that go on between friends.
I wont do what people expect me to,
i will do what i feel is right.
because in the end... it's the only way i cannot blame anyone else
dont blame other people for your faults
people know when you lie.
dont get drunk on saturday night... then show up to church on sunday
no one likes seeing someone who has a hangover.
Yes i've lied,
I'm paying for that mistake as we speak
I love leadership, and hope to be in a position one day.
that way i can fix what i feel is wrong.
no one believe's that i can achieve what i strive for.
i will show them they are wrong.
i will because i have will power.
i've been through more crap than i tell you.
no i wont tell you how many time's i've cried myself to sleep.
no i wont tell you how manytime's i've cried on the way home from my favorite place.... church.
no i wont tell you who you are... because you know.
this is not an attack on anyone in particular...
this is how i feel.
if you feel you need to comment,
read the first things i wrote... then think about it... then comment.
because right now, B.S. is not what i want to hear.
if you have a problem with that,
call me, you have my number,
if you don't then you have no reason to complain,
because obviously you dont know me that well then.
so once again,
shove it if you have a problem with reading this if you dont know who i really am.
thanks. and have a great new year.