Okay, my sister says that putting lyrics to songs is a cheap shot for writing blogs. So here it goes. Um, not much on my list of things done today, or left to do for that matter, i did paper mache an elephant butt, that was fun, and i traced some cool things for vbs. Um, I'm freaking out because i have the biggest zit of my life, its horrible, its not really a zit, its a bug bite, but it looks hideous, um, what else, Um, I have 3 manager shifts next week, thats exciting, I'm nervous and scared, but know that it will work out good. I'm excited for Carrie's baby shower, that's gonna be awesome, and i'm a lil upset bout my mom getting married, even though she's been with this guy for quite some time, i just have to tell her i'm happy for her though. what else, um, i'm addicted to the song "Fall to Pieces" by Avril Lavigne right now, cus it just explains almost everything that i feel right now, um, not much else that i can think of. um, i still like someone who i've had a crush on for a long time, and we were supposed to hang out last night, but i had to work, we were gonna go play pool, but its okay, maybe some other time. um, not much else to say, so I'm going to leave you with this.....
"Last night I dreamed I ate a ten-pound marshmallow, and when I woke up the pillow was gone."

jeez, i hate myself sometimes, i screw up some of the best moments, i feel like alyvia when she said "I'm a leach" (ask me later) but i mean, some of the stupid things i say sometimes should get me shot, like when i tell the person who i look to most, that nothings wrong, when i really just want to tell them the truth. But of course, i'm stupid and tell them that nothing's bothering me, and that i'm okay. when inside i just want to scream....
but on a better note, and not to offend any of my amish folks, but here we go...
"Amish Paradise"As I walk through the valley where I harvest my grainI take a look at my wife and realize she's very plainBut that's just perfect for an Amish like meYou know, I shun fancy things like electricityAt 4:30 in the morning I'm milkin' cowsJebediah feeds the chickens and Jacob plows... foolAnd I've been milkin' and plowin' so long thatEven Ezekiel thinks that my mind is goneI'm a man of the land, I'm into disciplineGot a Bible in my hand and a beard on my chinBut if I finish all of my chores and you finish thineThen tonight we're gonna party like it's 1699We been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseI've churned butter once or twiceLiving in an Amish paradiseIt's hard work and sacrificeLiving in an Amish paradiseWe sell quilts at discount priceLiving in an Amish paradiseA local boy kicked me in the butt last weekI just smiled at him and turned the other cheekI really don't care, in fact I wish him well'Cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in hellBut I ain't never punched a tourist even if he deservedAn Amish with a 'tude? You know that's unheard ofI never wear buttons but I got a cool hatAnd my homies all I agree I look good in black... foolIf you come to visit, you'll be bored to tearsWe haven't even paid the phone bill in 300 yearsBut we ain't really quaint, so please don't point and stareWe're just technologically impairedThere's no phone, no lights, no motorcarNot a single luxuryLike Robinson CarusoIt's as primitave as can beWe been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseWe're just plain and simple guysLiving in an Amish paradiseThere's no time for sin and viceLiving in an Amish paradiseWe don't fight, we all play niceLiving in an Amish paradiseHitchin' up the buggy, churnin' lots of butterRaised a barn on Monday, soon I'll raise anotherThink you're really rightous? Think you're pure in heart?Well, I know I'm a million times as humble as thou artI'm the pious guy the little Amlettes wanna be likeOn my knees day and night scorin' points for the afterlifeSo don't be vain and don't be whinyOr else, my brother, I might just have to get medieval on your heinieWe been spending most our livesLiving in an Amish paradiseWe're all crazy MennonitesLiving in an Amish paradiseThere's no cops or traffic lightsLiving in an Amish paradiseBut you'd probably think it bitesLiving in an Amish paradise

Okay, so the day i've been waiting for for 12 years, the day i become a SENIOR! its so awesome to know that i've gone 12 years without dropping out!, that's quite an accomplishment...well, at least for me. haha. well i'm so excited to see what the world has to offer me this summer, and the rest of my life. cool news, i get to be shift leader on saturday, meaning, i'm in charge of the store! SWEET! hahaha, ya'll come and visit me! um, had fun with my sister alicia and niece Aimee, and i'm glad susie is home. while everyone was here, we painted my house, it looks good, just a few more coats and we're good to go, well not much more to say, but hopefully soon i ACTUALLY get my puppy, i've gotten pictures and visited him, but miss him! hahaha, i'm lame. well check ya'll later, love ya

Proverbs 28:2 ~ When ther eis moral rot within a nation, its government topples easily, but when there is knowledgeable leaders, there is stability.
I. Laws of Leadership
1. Nothing happens until Someone provides leadership for it.
"Everything rises or falls on leadership"
Greatest problem: Lack of knowledge
2. Leadership is Influence
Biblical Definition: Someone with God given ability and responsibility to influence a group of God's people to accomplish God's purpose for that group.
3. The test of leadership is "Is anybody following you?"
4. The foundation of leadership is Character NOT charisma
"Remember your leaders who spoke the word of God to you.
Consider the outcome of their way of life, and imitate their faith"
Hebrews 13:7-8

3 Characteristics of good leaders
The have a message worth Remembering
they have a lifestyle worth considering
they have a faith worth imitating
5. Leadership Can be learned
"Keep putting into practice all you learned from me and heard from me and
saw me doing, and the God of peace will be with you."
Philippians 4:9
6. The moment you stop Learning you stop Leading.
" Since a dull ax requires great strength, sharpen the blade. That's the
value of wisdom; it helps you succeed." Eccl. 10:10
II. Background to Nehemiha's story
Where: Jerusalem
The Problem: City walls needed rebuilding
Nehemiah's Occupation: Cup bearer to King
III. Why Did God Choose Nehemiah as a Leader?
Nehemiha was sensitive to the needs around him
Nehemiah was Dependable
" Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is doshonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. syou you have not been trustworthy in handling wordly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? and if you have not been trustworthy with someone elses property, who will give you property of your own? no servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money."
Luke 16 10-13
3. Nehemiah was Available
God is not looking for Ability in leaders as much as he is looking for Credibility, Dependability, and Availablity.
My prayer is that God uses me whenever, however, and that he will break my heart with the things that break his heart, to make me closer to him, and to be a leader in everything that I do, " For I can do all things through Christ who strenthens me"

um , not much has gone on since my last post, except i lost my boyfriend, a brother, and some sleep, but nothing major.... none of those do i want to talk about, so i'll talk about something cool, um, The base ball game a few nights ago was wierd, well first off, there was an entire soccer team cheering, which was awesome, but they were really loud and kinda um , nicely put, annoying. but then after, i saw shawn, who sits in front of me in history at weaver, and i saw Jordan, who sat next to me in geometry last year! um, then since i hate being at home, i went over to brett and carrie's house *thank you btw for letting me* and we watched "That Thing You Do" it was awesome, then i came home, and that was bout it. I'm pretty psyched up for VBS this year, I'm leader of the Games for the Elementary age, it's cool, but some of the things are corny, but like GIGI the Giraffe says, I have to stick my neck out for God .... *WOW* hahahahaha, i'm so roaring for that! lol. um, yea, thats about it. I'm kinda always frustrated the last few weeks, just a lot of things have been getting on my nerves, even stupid inanimate objects like cones on the road, or the mouse pad, or my alarm clock. but i'm just ready for school to be over, and i'm ready for so much stuff to be over, and for more new stuff to begin, like senior year, graduation, getting a car, and just so much more, i'm just tired of being the young one who can't do anything, or stupid stuff. I realized that almost everyone in my c/a class hates me too, cus the only time i talk is to tell them to shut up and be respectful to the sub, and what not, but whatever, i dont need for people to like me, i just wish they didnt hate me. but yea, I'm just really tired, but can't sleep, havent been able to since last saturday, yet here i am sitting on the computer, that could be why i dont sleep. lol. well since no one reads this i'm going to go CRAZY!!!! Jkeowripowajif;oau[0iewajnif;oeaof jeiowa;fuiepwaufjioe;waj fiodaufjio;dajfiepawfjieawjf iopanfh;owaeu fio;eaufioew;a jfio;auf ewi JFEIWOAU FI;OAEJ FISLUFIO;ASF UJIO jaifo;jaio;fe jao;fjia;fjeiwao;fueiawo;fjioa;sdfu doaw;fjoi; aufdaoehwfuewafjsidao yuf iauiof; jaiowe;fjkdlsafj op;nfoiaj iogf uyawilfjweio;a utgfia @!%$EW^$*&^%*J#^$#@%!$%$&*(&*(*&%^^%$@%^$#^%^&&*(*(^&^%#^$ @#%$# &^*& ) )*&* ^% @$#^%*&)_( &^* &$%#$@&^$*&^(*&^^%$ *& )( )*^%#$ ^% $* &)(*) _(_*(&^&# $% ) this is about how i feel right now! okay, i'm done, and out, if you need me i'll be in my corner

Think freely. Smile often. Tell those you love, you do. Hope. Grow. Give. Give in. Keep a promise. Laugh hard. Reach out. Let someone in. Give a hug. Slow down. See the sunrise. Listen to rain. Have faith. Enjoy. Make some mistakes. Learn from them. Explore the unknown. Take chances. Tell the truth. Date somebody completely wrong for you. Say no. spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a buttface how you really feel. Let someone know what they are missing. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life.

um, because my prom got cancelled, i just ended up going and getting my hair done anyway! lol. i'm lame. i'm not looking at the camera cus stupid people call my name then take my pic! hahaha