I've noticed something that makes me so mad, and almost so mad to the point of tears. Some people change when they get into relationships. and its not , oh, i'm gonna hang out with them today, and we'll do lunch later, its the, hey, since i'm in a relationship, i'm never gonna talk to you again. its the, hey, i'm better than you because i have someone i'm infatuated with, and dont want to talk to anyone, kinda attitude. I've realized i've lost 3 really good friends in the past 9 months because of it. or at least i thought they were really good friends, but who knows. i mean, we went from the , hey wats up, to hanging out all the time, now we're to the point of " so yea, hey" kinda relationship. i hate when people change for someone, i mean, yea, you have to change a lil at least, but you can't block everyone else out, you have to keep your friends, because you may not always be in a relationship with this person, then who are you going to turn to if you blocked all of your friends out the first week you started dating? specially when you claim to be desperatly in love, after a week of dating. i can almost guarentee, unless you've been friends for some time, you're not gonna have a good relationship, and if you do and decide to get married, its not gonna be the greatest thing in your life. but whatever, ugggg, it just makes me so mad, that i've lost 3 friends because they ditched me when they got into a relationship. whatever, vbs is good, cant wait for tonight, i get to blow my nose on my sister!

well just got home from work, forgot to clock out, its okay though, it'll be fixed in the morning, um, work sucked, but since it sucked i'm not gonna talk about it. lets see, i would appreciate it if people were still praying for my friend, prayers are always welcome, i'm glad they're alright, um, VBS starts tomorrow... well today now, church is in a few hours, its gonna be weird in the fellowship hall, cus it hasnt been that way in over a year, its gonna bring back lots of memories of when i first moved here, specially since its summer. um, not much else going on, i'm excited to be serengetti betty, its gonna rock! not much going on, guess i'll check in later when i'm not tired and grumpy, oh, and susie, i'm sorry if i've been grumpy, well i know i have, and i'm sorry, i really do love having you home, and i dont want you to go back, but its meant to be! love all ya'll and remember, "Know God" *bible point for VBS day 1, have a great night!

um, come to realization, that I love my friends, and i really want everyone to be praying, specially for someone in particular, i wont say name's and i wont say what happened, but i'm just very glad that they're alive today, and i if "they" were to have passed, i would be devistated, crushed, and completely blown away, because i know that God has major plans for you, and without you, i dont know how i would get through some days, you truely brighten my day, make me laugh, and smile, whenever i talk to you! you're one of my best friends, and I know that God kept you here for one particular reason... because he knew how much it would hurt, all the people who love you, especially me, and the people who love you, love you more than you can imagine, because you're caring, honest, and one of the best people i've ever met in my entire life, and i love you!

Oh my Ga, CCC was so awesome! I can't even describe how great it was, i would be able to do it with pictures, but smart one here forgot a camera, so hopefully my cmg will email me pics to be able to post for you. But it was so great, the first day we went to Arrie Ellis's house, who is the mayor of Earl, a town in lincoln county NC. and we did yard work, and painted her porch, and her house, but we didnt finish, then tuesday, we started our 2 day project, which was to fix rotted wood on this lady's porch and in her living room, and it was difficult because it was so much more work than expected with the porch, because the original builder of the porch had no idea what he was doing. but anyway, that took up tuesday and wednesday, then thursday, we got our last full day project, which was to pull up lanolium (sp) and lay new tile on a lady's kitchen floor. Well it was all good, except that the project was about an hour and 15 mins or so away, so we get there around 10:30, the people don't even talk to us, and once we pull up the lanolium, there's the sticky paper stuff stuck to the floor, well being unprepared for this, we start trying to peel it up with crowbars and stuff, (doesnt work very well) then Jason gets there around 1, gives us the wood, and the tiles, which were peel and stick, thank God, and we start laying boards, and we realize that we can't measure, and we cut alot of wood about an inch off, it was bad, but then by 3 we start tiling her floor, and sara and i end up doing most of the tiling, which i dont mind, but the fact that one of the people just sat there looking at me while i was doing it, but we still had a good time i guess, seeing as we got the job done, we didnt get back until 7:30 , and we're supposed to be back to camp no later than 5, and we didnt leave the work site till 6 15, hahaha, jason came to help us again though, but something happened when we were hooking the fridge back up, and a wire to her ice maker got cut, or broke or something, so on friday jason had to go back and fix it... oops. and then on friday, for our half day job's we got to go back to Arrie Ellis' house and finish her porch and house, it was so awesome because she was so funny! but i'll talk about the people now i guess, starting off was Chris, our camp director, he was goofy, and was good at conversation, but we didnt' get to talk much, Faith, was awesome, she was a Major group leader, and a funny, funny sweet girl, we're staying in touch, then Jason, who was my major group leader, we had our good conversations about his first year as staff, and my first year as a camper, and how he felt that i would be good at a staff member and encouraged me to apply. And he was just so awesome to talk to, and really inspiring too, he eneded up falling asleep friday night at one of the tables, it was cute. then Amanda, who was our program coordinator, who helped jason alot, and she was just really inspiring to me, and really sweet, can't wait to talk to her again, then Houston, who was such a dork, he's like the....uh, can't describe him, he's just very unique, and awesome though too, even though all of the girls, well not all becasue it wasn't me, were like all over him.... at GOD CAMP! it made me so mad, cus all they would do is flirt, then lets see, ramsey, our tools person, she was cool,but we didnt' really talk much unless she was reading a bed time story, or waking me up. haha. then Cameron, who was the first person i talked to i believe, i sat next to him at lunch, and come to find out he was in my cmg, or Christian mission group, who i was paired with all week to do the projects, he was cool, and hope we get together over the summer and hang out, and maybe go visit miss. ellis. then Sara, who was also in my cmg, and was such an awesome girl, i love her, and i hope we get together this week like we're planning, but if not, i'm gonna see her before she goes to college, then Thalia, who was also in my cmg, she was cool but said some oddball stuff, but we still love her. then Dennis, who goes to IPUM but we never really talked, and he was in my cmg, and was funny, cameron had a ball making fun of him all week, then george, who was our driver, who was awesome and helped us out so much this week. and then Matt, who was cool, he also goes to ipum, and we just hung out alot during the week too. Lauren who is cameron's sister, was awesome too, she was really nice and i enjoyed her company, we're gonna go to the mall one day, then allyson, who was katie's bunk buddy, but she and i shared some good warm fuzzy's on the board. then Kari, who was my bunk buddy, she was so funny and sweet, we prayed for eachother every night, and we just inspired eachother everymorning as we got up, it was great. well that's all i'm gonna write for now seeing as this to me seems like a novel already, but i just cant express how much fun i had, well gonna go! love ya'll

THREE NAMES I GO BY:
1. Kristy
2. Kristy kreme/ kristpitykreme
3. nople

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD:
1. Kristpitykreme
2. youmadeoutwithwho
3. Waitwah

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. ankles
3. nose

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Stomach/waist
2. Thighs
3. Upper arms

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. Irish
3. Canadian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Never finding my true love
2. being raped
3. being forced out of my relationship with God

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Lip Gloss/ Make up
2. Cell phone
3. hair tie

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. flower *in my hair*
2. underwear
3. shorts

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Hawk Nelson
2. Lifehouse
3. Ryan Cabrera

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Right Here, or Take me , by Hawk Nelson
2. You and me, or Breathing, by Lifehouse
3. True, by Ryan Cabrera

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. curiosity
2. humor
3. lots and lots of love

THREE TRUTHS:
1. I listen to my heart more than my head
2. I am terrified of everything
3. I've lived in Rancho Cucamonga California

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Talented
2. Love's God
3. Love's me more than I can fathom

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Swimming/ Diving/ Playing Waterpolo
2. Dancing
3. Singing to my hearts content when no one is watching

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Leave for CCC
2. Talk to some cool people before I go
3. Talk to that "Special Someone"

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. History Education (Teaching)
2. Athletic Training
3. Soccer Mom

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Anywhere with you
2. Europe, anywhere there
3. South America, anywhere in there

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Dillon
2. MacKenzie
3. Hannah Grace

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Tell the person I love I love them
2. Leave a good impression *lasting legacy*
3. Show everyone How much I love my lord God

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY/GIRL:
1. I'm a sucker for chick flicks
2. I cry at stupid unimportant things *i'm an emotional girl...*
3. I love make~up

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Shane West
2. The guy from "Chasing Liberty"
3. Jason from hawk nelson

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Brian
2. Susie
3. someone else who loves me




Hey Guys, Can't wait for CCC tomorrow, its going to rock!

I'm finding my way back to sanity, Again
Though i really dont know what i'm gonna do when i get there
so take a breath and hold on tight,
spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

'Cause i hanging, on every word you say
and even if you dont wanna speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
'cause i want nothing more than to
sit ouside heaven's door
and listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yea
where i wanna be

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind
into the truth and i'm
trying to identify the voices in my head
God i wish it were you
let me feel one more time
what it feels like to feel
and break these calluses off of me one more time

"Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
and even if you dont wanna speak tonight
its alright, alright with me
Cause i want nothing more than to sit outside your door
and listen to you breathing
its where i wanna, where i wanna be, yeah

I dont want a thing from you
I bet you're tired of me
waiting for the scraps to fall
off of your table on to the ground
Cause i just wanna be here .... now

Breathing, By Lifehouse,
I love this song, and it just brings back so many memories from so long ago! I dont know, I'm sad that me and Q had a fight today, but its just hard for each of us to figure out who the other one is, i think we both have just changed so much, that we want it to go back to the way it was before she left, but we've both grown up so much and its just hard to adjust to eachother now, but its okay, i have faith, well i'm excited for CCC, its going to be great, i have no idea whats going to happen there, but it'll be fun. well not much else to write, but yea, ya'll have a good night, day, and week until i see/talk to you next, oh yea, dont im me or call me this next week unless its an emergency, because i'm not supposed to have my phone in the first place!
love ya'll

okay, so sunday night was CAR~HAZY, to put it lightly, well brian now has clear duct tape holding his bumper on, and i forgot to say how when we tried to go to brian's house, we pulled into someone elses driveway thinking it was his, and this creapy lady came and yelled at us, well jason, me and emu booked it outa there. okay , well here are some pics of the hawk nelson concert, because it was totally awesome!

Guitarist, and bassist

The drummer

Jason, the lead singer of hawk nelson

Oh wow! This was honestly the CRAZIEST night of my life! Twas grand. Started out by going to Hawk Nelson, and btw was a Great concert if they had finished their set. But it's okay because i still love them. Then Susie Brett and myself went to starbucks, and just hung out for a lil while. Then I went to Coldstone and helped them close, and afterwards Emily, Jason, and Myself all went up to Toads house aka Brian, and we made a giant doughnut topped cookie, and hung out and watched them play DDR. then after Kelly went home, we had this grand Idea of going to walmart, and by the way, he lives in the boondocks, (ledford area) and we hit a pole, and it was great, we duct taped his bumper back onto the car, (this is the shortened version by the way) and STILL go to Wal~Mart. get food, then go back to toads house, and watch emporer's new groove, where me and Toad end up texting eachother for the longest time, it was a GREAT conversation. lol. and then when emily and tyler were asleep, Doug, Toad and Me decide to go to kelly's house to let toad say bye for the week, and come back, and get a great welcome from Emily, where she not so politely tells me to shut up, when i was being quite, and all while doug is in his boxer/whitie titie's wrapped in a blanket so no one can see, rolling on the kitchen floor, and then we watch some cartoons, and i pass out finally at 7:30 or so, and wake up at around 8, and leave toads house, go take pics of the sign that we hit, and me and emily go to Chik Fil A for "Breakfast" only not, we had lunch, but it was 10, so we ate, then i come home, and haven't slept yet, that was my adventure last night~ if you want to hear more about the car accident just ask, cus there was way more to it than i've detailed, to keep Brian in the safe, lol. love ya'll and here are some nice pics of our lovely adventure.....

That's just a cool street name

The pole displaced by the car, we love the malibu

That's just a funny brand of stuff, dont know what it is, but it's at walmart

Tyler and Brian In walmart.... like the underwear in the background?

Me and emily trying to be cool, okay, well at least i'm trying

Brian before ANYTHING had happened

Brian at 5 30 AM, right before the trip to kelly's

our pole was broken and knocked about 10 feet from the cement holding it in....and bent for that matter, good thing the only major injury was a skinned nose.

doug in his blanket talking to Daisy, brians dog,

brian buying his duct tape to fix his bumper

trying to duct tape the bumper back on

the guys's playing DDR

um, not much to say since the last post, just had some fun at work last night, we had a water fight, and then after, Jason and Brian and Me all went to Carolina Diner and had coffee, and My true self came out when i broke the saucer...hahahah, it was great. um, going to see HAWK NELSON tonight! I'm so freggin excited, and then i don't know for sure, but i know brian was saying something about going to his house afterwards, if it happens it will be fun, who know's though. um, just kicking it with summer and all that greatness! lol. well i'm gonna go get ready for my concert, have a GREAT night