so

so work sucked, glad i got that outa the way. lol. i'm sad tho, cus i have no plans for new years cus i was so ready to have a lock in, but its okay, some other time i guess. i might go over to katies house cus sounds like her mom is going all out! lol. fajita's, virgin margarita's and POPPERS, i think she won me over with that! i love anything that lights up or makes noise, but things that blow up.....i'm down with that...i've got some fireworks we could light up if you want...lolso yea....i have nothing to write except i'm glad that brett and carrie and samantha are coming home in like a day...that tops off my week.! i'm ready to go to tennessee...i've waited for so long to go, and i only have like 2 weeks left to wait. this is great! i just hope to see the light in the youth group lit back up again. I want to see us all close to eachother, and close to God. and i'm hoping thats what will happen when we're down there. well im outa this popsicle stand.

AWESOME!!!!

Well, Merry Christmas....Delayed. I hope everyone was blessed with good friends and lots of love yesterday. I was very Blessed. ok, onto the exciting stuff. My dad was very good to me this year for Christmas presents, well he is every year, but this year i got what i've been asking for for a looooooong time. He gave me a Cell phone,*(that was more of a necessity)* and he got me an Apple Ipod! not a cheap flimsy mini color one. But he went 40 GB. The MAD DOG of Ipods!!! it so totally rocks, with a thousand songs, i still have 34 GB, how great is that!!!!! i'm so totally stoked, i mean, ive been asking for one for forever! well i'm gonna go get ready for work. and zack, i'm glad you're coming home tomorrow, i miss ya buddy. and brett and carrie and samantha, i'll miss you guys bunches but i'll be extatic when you get home this weekend! have fun and be safe! love all you guys. Katie, be a good kid out there in the middle of nowhere! lol. Love always
Kristy Kreme!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Hey ya'll lets keep this Christmas about whats its supposed to be about...Christ. That's why we celebrate, it should be like a birthday party, only better!
Well, other than my sista bein home, i dont have much to say except that its like old times. I love it! i'm a tag along, and its great. like it was creepy sunday night after the concert cus like, it was like summer all over again, only it was freezing, and now everyone's dating and depressed. lol. Seriously though, like, it was zack susie, hurley , and me. all just chillin at Steak n' Shake till late and just talking and calling eachother mean things. I LOVE IT. it made me sad though cus then i start thinkin how everythings gonna change completely once she leaves again. its depressing. but on to a better subject. i'm kinda scared for tomorrow. because like susie knows what i'm gettin for Christmas, and like, its scary, cus i dont know if it's good or bad, but i guess i'll figure that out in a little bit. plus Brett saying how my present was the best ever, someone said that to me once, and put jugs of water, nuts, and bolts into a box with bubble wrap, then duct taped it. Not a good sign, but i trust you. lol! well its gettin late, and guess what....Its no longer Christmas Eve Eve! just Christmas Eve! YAY!!! well gonna go spend some quality time with Q lube . Email me or CAll me or sum thing! lol LYLAS

hmmm

YAY My sister's HOME!!! yea, today was pretty ok, but it got really good during my second period exam, when lauren, my friend who was in that accident, came into class to take her test!!!! she's doing SOOOO good. well another day, another post, talk to ya'll later.

appology

in advance, i would like to appologize for any sneaking around i have done, and for all the people who will hate me after church today....if you're reading this before church, you'll understand after. well post about it later! lylas

pass the taters

hahaha, sorry, sounded like a good topic to me...what you think? well youth was pretty good seeing as it was only like 15 mins long. sad that brittany has to leave early now, she should still just get a ride till her six months are up..... yea, pizza was good, and so were the oreos...yummmm. lets see, soccer was fun, its good to have the good ol' days back where we broke things....hahaha, if it aint broke, you cant fix it...so break it..(my words of wisdom) cus ya'll know i'm a wise old bat...lol, not really, but that would be cool. so lets see, sittin here all by my lonesome, cus popsy bear had to work late so i'm bored outa my mind. hum, what cool interesting thing could i possibly talk about, oh yea, thats right, nothing. FLYING GUMBY! lol, i'm throwing my gumby toy around....hints the meaning of flying gumby, man, i've been writing for like 10 mins, and still havent said anything.........."I know you're talking...but are you saying anything?" famous line from Cat in the Hat great movie....so whats on the tube at 10 on a wed. night? anything good? didnt think so, so i'm going to continue to write some pointless stuff till i cant stand it anymore, maybe this will become my longest blog....going for the record. man i miss my sister. sux that i havent seen her in six months. kinda depressing, i can remember like a year ago just hanging out and stuff. its weird how everything has completely changed since she left. like everyone's attitude. like i know mine has changed, and so has my perception of life. and i think the church has changed a lot too. its kinda sad though cus if i mention susie, some people are like "who" granted they're the new people, but still it makes me so heart broken to knwo that they dont know what wonderful things she's doing, and worse, they dont know her. like somebody was asking me in class who my biggest inspiration in life was, and she was the first one to pop into my mind, usually its parent, but it was her. I mean, to see all the great things she does, then to talk to her friends at school and hear about hte more amazing things that she does. its crazy. well. got myself emotional now, gonna check ya'll later.

update

so here's an update to the blog that i wrote about all the Monty Python movie lines..."I'm not dead'.....'yes you are'......'I'm happy"HAHAHAHA

well here's the real update...Lauren , my friend who was in that accident is getting better...It's going to be a hard and long road for her, but she's recovering great!

well i'm going to bed , i'll see hopefully some of ya'll tomorrow!

This is me and Ozzy, I just found it on my computer so i thought i'd show it for ya! lylas

lalala

So whats up ya'll? n2m on this side of the street. just chillin. Man today wasn't the greatest day, like it was fun, but it was work. Luci called me in today and i made so many freggin cakes, it was horrible. but i got paid for it, so it was ok. yea, then Mychael wants me to hang out after he gets off work at 9: 30 , i'm thinkin no, cus i worked from 11 to 6 30, and i'm pretty tired. yeah, so just thought i'd let ya'll know that. Man idk why, but i'm emotional today.....(I'm in a glass case of emotion!!!!!!) lol. thats seriously how i feel, but i just need to think, well i'll hopefully see ya'll at church tomorrow, and at the concert tomorrow night! lylas

lalala

so lalala, how's it going? Not bad on the home front. Cleaned the church tonight, it was cool , seth, jason, brittany, ashaleelee, ozzy, and rebecca came, it was cool. Then we went to bretts house and watched monty python and the holy grail, and Brett was like, " I dont condone any of the language used in this movie for comedic purposes" It was HILARIOUS, then we went and listened to farts from www.fart.com and it was great, i especially liked the fart symphony. Lets see, what else is new... well that guy that i said of course to about dating, yea not diggin it. lol, if you really wanna know, call me i'll tell ya all about it! lol. so then lets see...Yea, thats been my week. not the greatest, but cant complain too much. Youth Rocked Wed. night, there were alot of new/ old ppl who never come anymore. lol. like katie, and stuff. then it was cool cus young adults stayed, that rocked cus i miss those "old farts" hahaha, and i knwo that some of them read this so i'm gonna give a great big shout out to all the cool ppl i talk to! ( its really only usually josh, but its ok, i still love ya man *biggest fart noise ever*) haha just playin. you rock the socks of a person with big toes...thats not really a compliment i dont think. lol. moving on, where's the next stop? oh there, yea not diggin that. what the heck, man i'm delirous, i'm like whoa....FLYING GUMBY! yes, that guy rocks! oh and susie, i love you and miss you tremendously. And the one time i call you you cant talk! lol. well i'm bout to ditch this popsicle stand, cus lenno's on, and cant miss him! lylas!
You're mother was a Hampster, and your father smelled of elderberries, I fart in your general direction, I blow my nose at you, RUN AWAY, Its just a scratch, but a mere flesh wound, you pansey, you stupid kinniggets, we're the knights that say kneeeeeee, Sir Robin ran away...no I didn't....Sir Robin ran away away, (greatest movie lines from monty python that i can think of at this moment! )

fluffy nutter!!!!

hahaha I got a teddy bear today and named it fluffy nutter! it's GRAND!!! ok but to more important news...update on lauren...she's doing excellent! I'm going to see her tomorrow , so I'll give you a better update then. DRAMA....ok, so there's this guy in my marketing class who asked me out today, Me, the oblivious one, didnt think he was serious and said of course, so i think he thinks we're going out. and then a guy that i go to weaver with is defenetly crushin on me and i dont know what to do about him, its killin me cus i know he's liked me for like a month and just keep putting it off...whatever works i guess. lol. but yea, why do i keep writing this stupid thing, nobody reads it, and if they do, i'm pretty sure they dont care.. lol. its ok cus i'm gonna do it anyway....

I fart in your general direction!!! (one of the greatest movies eVVVeRRRRR ...katie RRRRRRRRR) hahha LOL i'm so carhazy!!! this is great, i'm just gonna ramble now... katies now bullwinkle! she was like "hey i'm bullwinkle" with her hands as horns and everything! it was great. then i got her good with a slugbug 2 of them actually. Willy's crazy, he just makes funny noises all day. lets see. i have a butt load of cookies from our cookie exchange today. its great. then lets see, i had a GRAND OL' DAY!!! CRIPES!!! (thats another great movie!) alrighty yo....check ya latur!!! I'm out!

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!

Happy Thanksgiving, I hope everyone had some good turkey, and no vegetable jello (only valid for my family members) haha. well me and pops had a great day,well, what we spent together anyway... we got up and cooked the turkey together, and he taught me all the tricks to making a perfect Thanksgiving feast. I actually cleaned the turkey (ewww) and stuffed it. But it was fun to have some fun cooking w/ my dad. Then I ate for like 15 mins after like 6 1/2 hours of cooking. it was funny cus we could only find a 13lbs turkey at last minute, so we have so much food left over, so if anybody wants any, dont be afraid to ask! lol. we're going to the store tomorrow to get more tupperware for all the leftovers we had today! how sad is that? lol. well anyway, i'm going to go have pie with my popsy bear! love you all and have a great thanksgiving, see ya'll 3 lbs heavier! lol.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!

what to say

Well guys, the prayers i guess are working, lauren woke up from her coma, her dad came into cold stone to let me know, when he was there he showed me some pretty gruesome pictures of the accident and the blazer that she flipped in. There had to be a reason why God kept her here because there is no explanation why she lived through that. Though they still arent sure if the internal bleeding will stop. When i went to see her she was in a full body cast and the only part of her body visible was from her eyebrows to the bottom of her lower lip. I was told that it may take at least 6 weeks before she can sit up straight, and about a year before she will be able to walk, but God worked miracles, and i'm sure that he will work them with the recovery also. She's able to recall some of the accident, and up until the paramedics got there. The guy who was driving is doing ok, he's out of the hospital, but the kid in the passenger seat has a broken neck, and should be released some time this week. The driver said that as he was trying to get the blazer off of lauren, that she called him her hero, and that he was going to save her life. crazy to hear somthing from somone who you put in that position. but anyway. thank you anyone and everyone who has prayed for her and please continue to pray. I love you all. And never forget that God really does work miracles and he does have a purpose for you.

please pray

Hey guys, I know this might be asking alot of some people, but i know that this will come through... please pray for my friend lauren...
Lauren is a 17 year old girl who was in a car accident this past weekend. She was sitting in the backseat of a Blazer when they hit a curve going too fast, and the blazer flipped at least 3 times. Lauren was thrown from the blazer and was hanging out the window while it was flipping, she is alive, after recessitating her a few times at the accident and once at the hospital. She has broken all of her ribs, both arms, her kidney was smashed and her liver is no longer functioning properly. She has brain contusions, a broken jaw, nose, and cracked her skull. When the Blazer finally landed, Lauren was completly out of the blazer and it was resting on her arm. She's still in very critical condition, and all i'm asking is for prayer, for her, and her family, and friends. Pray for anything, but mostly comfort for her, and all the ones close to her who have to see her like this. Thank you so much, and i'll keep you updated on how she's doing.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

This is all for Brett and Carrie, mostly carrie cus it affects her more, but congratulations you two! you guys make great parents and to be blessed with another child is the best thing in the world! I love you both and you guys know that you're the BEST!

this is one of my bestest friends megan, she's so gorgous! i love you girl, i miss you so much

Decipleship

well today's youth topic rocked the socks this week, it was so cool to talk about the real world things that actually happen, and then find out that you're not the only one struggling with these petty little things that are boulders in our walk with God. It's just awesome to know that we have such a great place where we can openly talk and share our feelings without being judged on our convictions or our problems. its still discouraging sometimes to know that we have such a strong youth group, yet none of us actually "know" eachother, except for the select few. I think that's all going to change soon though with the homework that Brett gave to us, and the fact that we almost have to get close because the small group situation, you cant just sit there and not be noticed, i mean, even andrew talks, i thought he was almost mute...sorry, you're just so quiet sometimes.... but its that people are interacting, and actually getting what youth is supposed to be about. I love what some people shared tonight, and i wish that we could always open up like that, and not take a specific night for it to come out. but its improvement none the less. I love you guys and anyone who has seen anyone in our youth can't deny that he is working wonders in all of our lives. and nothing in the end will go unnoticed by God.

Life's your canvass, you have one pallat...pick a color. make sure that it represents you, and not what anyone else wants, its not art unless it comes from you're heart. otherwise picaso would have been some crazy guy who made a mess, not a masterpiece. he was still crazy , dont get me wrong, but he felt his work, he didnt try to please anyone, just himself.

in Zacks words....Like a fat girl in a dodge ball game...i'm out!

so...i despise mrs. murphy....ok, i'm in culinary arts lab, well she said she'd excuse labs if we were absent, well she never excused mine, and now on my report card i got a B!!! what is that? its a cp class and i cant even pull an A. if she had excused it, i would have a 96 instead of a freggin 91 ! that makes me soooooooooooooooooooooo mad. but w/e, she's a turtle and i dont like her. but i'm jsut gonna go on my merry lil way and do my crap and give her a bigger reason to not like me. kill her with kindness. thats really mean, i really wont, but i will be nice. i'm just frustrated...how in the world did i get a B in CP CULINARY ARTS?! jeez i hate north carolina grading systems, otherwise i would have a freggin A!!! w/e. i'm out

YAY!!!!!!!!

Congrats to Vic and Amy! You guys deserve this so much! i'm so happy for you!


Children in a Family are like flowers in a bouquet: there's always one determined to face in an opposite direction from the way the arranger desires.
Marcelene Cox
The Family is one of nature's masterpieces.
George Santayana

ba humbug!

lol! i'm just kiddin, i'm not really in a bad mood, i just watched the movie though! i love the muppets! they rock the socks! whats up with me sayin that lately?! i dunno, its gettin on my nerves though. thats strange. well had an interview yesterday with the new theaters, i think i have a pretty good shot, seein as they're hiring 75 people. but yea. youth rocked last night. i love it at bretts house so much more. it was like people acctually talked, more of britt, becca and me, but still! i love it! i'm glad we'll be there for the rest of 40 days of purpose. i was glad that the new kid robbie came. thats awesome how God will bring people to you, and you just have to be kind to them to make an impression of God's love. it's awesome. but anyway. last night rocked too cus i spent the night at mrs. tere's house and we watched a movie then just hung out and talked and i'm just so glad that i have her in my life right now. she just knows exactly what i'm going through and doesnt let me hide anything. she can see right past me when i'm trying to hide something . it really makes me feel loved and special to someone. yea, then this morning, she drove me to school in the porshe! i was like....oh yea, i'm cool now, you got nothing on me! haha, except i was late, so nobody cool saw me except for mr. denton, and he was like, new wheels.? i was like, most def. haha, it was grand. but yea, thats the moral of my story is that i had a great time with mrs. tere last night! oh yea, susie, if you read this and i dont tell you on the phone, Mrs. Chapman says she loves you bunches and says that you were her favorite student last year! (she really did say that)

well peace love and chicken grease..."I understand that you are handicapped by a natural immaturity, and I forgive you" from the movie Armageddon

zipadi do da!!!

So...life goes on, you live, love, learn, and then...



what happens after that. What are we supposed to do after we die, i know we "hopefully" will go to heaven and worship God forever, but will we do anything while we're there? just my pondering question for today.
Susie, I'm so proud of you right now. I heard a story today about a medical missionary, and I just thought of you. I was like "wow, that's what my sister IS doing" because with the faith and love you have, you dont have to go to a foreign country to show Christ's love, but you're willingly going to give up almost every luxury, for people you dont even know will let you live. It just makes me have the greatest respect for you. You don't let anything get into you're way. you always put the joy of others before your own. I've never met anyone who can be compared to you. I just want you to know that no distance will make me love you, or care for you less. and i know that it sucks that we cant talk about stuff like we used towe used to be close, but i know that its hard to have such a crazy schedule it makes it difficult to talk about the little stuff that we used to talk about becuase we were connected at the hip. I want to let you know that before I make any crazy decisions though, i'll let you know what's up. Dont think that just cus you're far away that you're suggetions aren't valid. I'll always listen to what you have to say. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MUCH! lol

Love the Lord your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, with all of your mind, and with all your strength...Mark 12:30.
Nothing should come between your relationship with God, because in the end, He's the only one you'll have left, no earthly relationship will last as long as the Love God gave for us. The love that never goes away. Don't trust instints, they fail you, But God CANNOT fail you. It's impossible, he puts us into situations that he knows we can handle, and he gives us the strenght we need to handle them, if we just look to him then all is good.
Thats it for today....maybe tomorrow we can chat.

hummmmmmm

So, we were at youth last night and it rocked. like Brett hit every point that's been bugging me. That's really all i have to say about youth, is that it rocked. But yea, I got the purpose driven life book last night and started reading. I think its gonna change alot of lives , including mine! i'm more excited about the 40 days of purpose at first i was more like, why, we're here just to eat sleep and whatever, but now i'm finally getting it! I love it! well thats all for today. LUS YA ALL!!!

new slate

ok, well I've completely decided to get rid of all of my grudges towards anyone who may have made me mad, or upset me in anyway. I know that my past blogs have made me look like a complete rebel, (the beer all over me at concerts, me getting mad at the youth group, and to top it all off... a new boyfriend.) but honestly enough, its just a strange mesh of occurances that make me look that way. Just to let anyone ( Susie ) know, that i'm not mad, or sad or upset, i'm just trying to get through life and am too open sometimes about my feelings. I love everyone so much and nothing in the world could change that. NOTHING. If anything, everyone here has made living here so much more enjoyable. I never went to church in Cali, nor did i want to, but here, i'm not dragged to church, i willingly ask for rides and do everything in my power to see you guys as much as i possibly can.
Susie, I know I havent been the best at calling but i'm trying to fix that, just this past month has been extremely stressful, but its all over now that all my things are prioratized, and you my friend, have been placed very near the top! next to God! I love you so much and miss you almost as much!
I love everyone else, and for heavens sake....Don't worry so much about me, I promise I wont let anything bad happen, and I'll be just fine, sometimes I just need time to myself to think things out.
PEACE LOVE AND CHICKEN GREASE......"If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?" Steven Wright.

small quote

"you know Marge, roads are just a suggestion....like pants" thats my blog for the day, Like a fat girl in a dodge ball game....i'm out! smootches

Wendy's

So, waht you guys say we make a midnight run to wendy's. I'm hungry, so i'm thinkin its a good idea. well not much more to write except. um,. yea, thats about it.well, i'm kinda mad at someone, but wahts new. he knows who he is, cus i just stopped talking to him today! haha. what is it with people wanting to get revenge?! why dont you just tell me what you freggin want to say and say it, not be like "oh the wind told me" what is that. idk, thats part of the imiturity that bothers the poop outa me! thats my post for today. ttyl

My Appology

I'm so sorry for my last post. I know that it was completely out of line and am realizing why God put me into this situation. And mostly I think it's for patience. I know that I had no right to say the things I said, nor do I want to hurt anyone's feelings. I've thought about it alot since Wed. and I've decided to put other things off and just focus on what needs to be done in my life, and those things right now are 1. God 2. Friendships 3. Loyalty 4. Love 5. Patience. Not exactly in that order, except for number one. I just really want to appologize for doing what I've done. Susie, you really helped me realize all of this. Thank you! I love you so much, and sometimes I want to blame you for leaving, but you're gone for a good purpose and I'm so proud of you. Well I'm gonna go get ready for my dinner and a movie, I'll see you all on Sunday.

so

yea, today, everyone got on my nerves. apparently everyone isnt captain obvious and cant see that when people are talking, you should shut your face and listen. TAKE notes, not PASS notes. Jeez, i 'm kinda glad i'm failing out of school this year, cus i hate stupid people. i think thats why i loved wesney's class so much, everyone just kept their mouth shut and did what they were supposed to do. i guess its cus how i was raised to be mature. and it bothers me that people cant even have the common sense to listen when someones talking. or when people who dont know what they're doing, try and tell me what to do , when i know whats going on. i really wanna say what the boy from PAY IT FORWARD said, he said is the world just "poop" (edited for content) but honestly, that's how i feel. i'm so frustrated with people that i just wanna cry, honestly thats how much people bother me. Carrie and Brett said something that kinda hit me though, if i dont like it, why dont i change it. and i would, but i dont wanna be the enemy. and with the people that i'm not that close with, i know i would become the horrible person who told them how to live their lives. maybe thats not what they would say but i would probly say the same thing if i was in their position with me sayin that to them. I told carrie that i was going to go to a friends youth group next week and i thought she was going to rip my head off, and i told her how i felt, and i feel bad, but what else am i supposed to do? if anyone has any suggestions, please tell me. because right now i'm torn. If i leave, i leave everything that i know in north carolina, if i stay, i lose everything i've gained here. I'm gonna leave with that. and if i end up hurting someone, i'm sorry, i dont mean to.

Well. since everyone's gonna find out soon enough, this is my new b/f... bad pic though, he looks different without a camera in his face

hummm

Well My sis found out that I have a boyfriend now...uh oh. and she's making me tell everyone before she does. Its scary, i'm afraid of Tere slapping me on the back of the head. Hard. and i just found out that brett knows now, uh oh. i love you...dont hurt me... I'm grounded....i'll just go to my room now. lol j/k. I will be when my dad finds out i'm going out with him. he doesnt want me to date...i think. But its okay cus i really want to bring him to church, but i dont think that will happen cus he's into his church and youth group. so its ok. But yea, I went to the Everyday Sunday concert with Katie on sunday and oh my gosh! it ROCKED THE SOCKS. Me and katie were nerds and jumped up and down the WHOLE time. we were like the cool punk kids, only not. and on Saturday, me and (no name yet) went to zonefest! it rocked. until someone spilled beer on me. but its ok cus we were leaving at that point anyway. but yea, my whole, i'll get cool pics didnt exactly work out, seeing as i forgot my camera. but its all gravy. well gonna go to bed since i have two hours of make-up time in the morning. YAY 6 30 i get to sit in the office! SCORE! NOT. well have a fine feathered day my fine feathered friends

i love you both so much...this is a shout out to my peeps in Nevada! Megan and Josh, you both have changed so much, but thats why i love you! Josh , remember that you're the ORIGINAL SHUA!

This is my buddy chelsey. this is another shout out to NV

Coolio

well today was pretty cool i guess. went to zonefest and it rocked, well for what i saw of it. i got there at 1, it started at 11 30. then i had to leave at 3 30. but i ended up seein Avion, pat mcgee ban, toby lightman, and some of sister hazel. i left in the middle of their show. but i did see josh and contemplated throwing a hot dog at his head. but then i didnt cus some jerk spilled a beer all over me. like head to toe covered in beer . i cried for like an hour. but then i went to work and probly am going to get fired tomorrow, but its ok cus i'm freggin tired of that STUPID place. but my boyfriend came to see me tonight so it was ok. well not much more to say except that i'm happy to go to church tomorrow. i've been waitin for this day for 2 weeks! yay! and Everyday Sunday is gonna rock tomorrow. plus the fact that Kids in the way are supposed to open for them! ROCK ON. i'll try to get some good pics to post on here for tomorrow. well gonna get going.

sympathy page

this is all for MALIHA! i love you more than katie...ok i love you gals both the same. but mal, you'll always have a special place in my heart . and ps...welcome to the quicky mart! this candy store is closed! great times great times. i miss those tournaments! we so gotta watch shrek 2, and you could be my donkey, and i'll be the ogre and sprout lil white heads when left out in the sun too long. look at that, what is that, its hideous! (david) hahahahahah that was a great day! dude, girl you rock the socks! and shoes, or slippers! hahaha . well now you cant say i love katie more than you! hahaha. luv you bunches...smootches!

haha

Well today is great! i'm sittin in marketing talkin to laela on im and sittin at the computer right next to her. its great enjoyment till it kicks you off. i hate school computers. they suck big time. man i really wish i could get some music on this thing, its too quiet for me right now. just chillin, i'm supposed to be doin some sort of career project, but seriously, who wants a career? not me. at least not right now. haha. well today's gonna suck, i didnt do half of my homework for english and i'm probly gonna have a quiz on it today, but hey, i can make up enough answers to get me through it, thats what i did with huck finn! haha. its bad, but life goes on right. We dont need no stinkin english! well guess i'll be goin, Brett, you should get off your away message once in awhile so that i have someone to talk to during the day....

In KJ52's words...."Only one God, one love, one way" from the song Dear Slim

Voices in my head

So... you should feel special, you're one of the only people me and the other 29 voices in my head can agree on that you've got it goin on! haha! I have no idea what that was, but it was def. funny to me! AHHH flying Gumby! sorry, gumby started to fly off the table. ok I have a feelin i know what you're thinkin, She's def. on some major drugs, but i'm def. not! hahaha just about 10 shots of expresso again. i think i may need another intervention...haha.. 48 step program will do i guess. just cus it will take the 4 times to get it through my head. haha...well gettin a lil delirious...wow, thats a good band. oh yea, November 7...everyone I know ...the Joy Williams concert is that night, and we should def. go! well thats all for now!

School Prayer

Now I sit me down in school
Where praying is against the rule
For this great nation under God
Finds mention of Him very odd.

If Scripture now the class recites,
It violates the Bill of Rights.
And anytime my head I bow
Becomes a Federal matter now.

Our hair can be purple, orange or green,
That's no offense: it's a freedom scene.
The law is specific, the law is precise.
Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice.

For praying in a public hall
Might offend someone with no faith at all.
In silence alone we must meditate,
God's name is prohibited by the state.

We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks,
and pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks.
they've outlawed guns, but FIRST the Bible.
To quote the Good Book makes me liable.

We can elect a pregnant Senior Queen,
And the 'unwed daddy,' our Senior King.
It's 'inappropriate' to teach right from wrong,
We're taught that such 'judgments' do not belong.

We can get our condoms and birth controls,
Study witchcraft, vampires and totem poles.
But the Ten Commandments are not allowed,
No word of God must reach this crowd.

It's scary here i must confess,
When chaos reigns the school's a mess.
So, Lord, this silent plea I make:
Should I be shot; My soul please take!

Amen

Angel
Like an angel you were sent from above.
With all the hopes and dreams of becoming something you love.

You fill my heart with love and joy,
Something so precious you can't destroy.

I knew that you were heaven sent.
Your face always looking so sweet and innocent.

Some people spend a lifetime waiting
for someone to be sent to them like you.

All those candle's that i blew.
Just wishing for you.
I knew aht it was true,
That lifetime I spent was worth waiting for you.


~"Isn't it funny, when you are day dreaming outside the bus window about the person you love, that doesn't love you, and the person that truly loves you is sitting right next to you."

- I dont exactly know why, but i felt like writing about love, so there it is, but i didn't write the poem i just felt like it related to how i felt right now, so its permanetly borrowed for the time being.

attack of the killer bunny!!!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! run for your life!!! its the attack of the killer bunny! i'm going to knaw you to death. haha, thats what me and Emu did at work today! it was soooo funny! then, we wore our hats upside down and backwards with our collars popped up! we were pimpin like that! I love you Emu! (Emily) haha. well had a good week, glad its FINALLY over. i did do a pretty cool project in english today though that helped me realize what i'm really frustrated about. we wrote our own Declaration of Independence on anything we wanted freedom from. and i wrote about society, society is all about the ways of the world, conformity, and drama. and those are all the things i HATE., and i dont like hating things. but i'm excited cus me katie and maliha are going to hang out tomorrow and watch "The Stupids", and "1776", and shrek 2, and a bunch of other movies, its gonna be so great. i havent seen maliha since she came to see me at work like in June! girl, you rock and i love you! well, i'm gonna go chat to cool people like katie and ryan, and other cool people who usually end up reading this ghetto stuff! haha. i love you guys!

so...new day

yea, todays a good day, i guess. well had an awesome night at youth last night, watchin everyone gettin along so well makes me want to take back what i wrote, but not completely. today was cool cus i'm running for Vice president of community service in FCCLA and I gave my speech today...so hopefully i got it! it'd be rockin! yea! well just talkin to people right now ya know, same ol same ol.
This is all for katie, cus she def. wanted me to devote something to her. so this is it! i love you katie! your a great person and i love you so much, i'm glad to see that God is working through you so much and know that you can do whatever you want as long as you do it for the right reasons. I hope you know that i'm always here for you whatever you need or would like to talk about!
well tahts gonna be it for me tonight. i'm gonna go talk to people who usually talk back. haha.

"I love being a blonde, it makes it really easy to surprise people" Pamela Anderson

wow

so, it happened again. someone told me that i should date a certain someone who is a crazy idea to date! and p.s. alicia...I'm very angry with you for that! thats the like 12th person who said it, and michelle said it tuesday too! whats up with people sayin this?! i'm startin to think there are some things goin on that i dont know about! its bad! but its ok cus i dont like him like that....I think...no, i know! just kiddin. i know i dont like him like that. that would be Very AWKWARD! but yea, then i got asked out by hornaday again today, what am i supposed to tell him?! he's cool and all, but not like that. so i invited him to church, so even if he comes to see me, at least he'll come to church and try to clean up his life. but yea... i dont have much more to write except that. ttyl

“It is easier to find a score of men wise enough to discover the truth than to find one intrepid enough, in the face of opposition, to stand up for it.”

well...

Today was ok, i got to sit in church today! yay. But for some reason it just wasnt the same. I just felt really distracted for some reason, like i'd start to daze off and think about like other things not related to church, i was just sittin there with a blank stare. i felt kinda bad, but there was really nothing i could do, but then like pastor steve would look at me and i'd be like "huh?" But its ok. i guess. I just wish things were like it was before Suzi left. Now I just feel like i dont belong, I wasnt really close to anyone but everyone was close to her, so when she left i was like wow. what am i supposed to do now. it just sucks cus i used to think that i was really close to alot of the people at church and realized that i was really only close to her. but its ok, hopefully i'm just crazy and missin her. Like today, i was invited to go out with the young adults, but it was so different, cus it used to be like Zack Josh Susie Me and we all got along really well, now like cus susie's gone, zack doesnt talk to me, i talk to josh sometimes, luke never talks to me, except on occasion, and Erik never comes. so its like, wow, where do i belong now. but whatever. life goes on. I kinda wish that young adults never left cus now its like all drama in youth group and it feels like there are people who come just so they dont sit at home, and thats ok, i just wish that people would start commiting themselves and applying themselves to the Lord instead of just bringing in drama and stupid stuff to a place where no one really wants to hear about "why you're not dating him, or she's not talking to me because i went out with her 2 ex boyfriend" crap. i'm so tired of it. I just wish that people would mature a little and just i dont know, dont bring more drama than we already have. ( sorry i'm writing alot, but i'm frustrated ) But sometimes i just look around and people talk and write notes, and sleep and stuff in church and youth group, and how can you call yourself a christian if you dont want to listen to what God has promised you? I mean, thats what life is all about, none of the boyfriends or girlfriends or whoever can give you eternal life, so why do they get involved in it if you wont get anything out of it. Its stupid. I just really want to see a change in our youth group and church to show that God is the reason we go, NOT for social gatherings and talking and stuff. sure you can and should get to know the people who you go to church with and love them and be friends with them, but go to church to learn about God. I mean, today in sunday school, it felt like me and brittney were the only ones who were awake, and i think all of us should apply ourselves a lot more than we have because it doesnt feel like we're a youth group anymore. and it bothers me. well thats all i'm gonna write today, maybe tomorrow i'll be a lil less frustrated and be able to write more sensible things.

I had the greatest day today! I got to hang out with kids all day and not have to worry about anything but keeping them alive... which can be difficult at times, but today it was easy. I love everyone who trusted me with their kids today because i had the greatest time. I love you all. I'm mad at ppl who paid me though, cus there's no reason why i got paid that much, therefore , its all goin in the offerin plate on sunday.... well after i get them cashed. haha. banks aren't open 24/7 ya know! haha well it was great. cus we played twister, and had a tea party, and played foosball, and table hockey, and played cowboys and climbed me as a tree, and just had a great time, watched a movie and played other games! it was exciting! well not much more to write cus that was my entire day! well better skiddadle...

Quote of the day..."Never forget me, Because if I thought you would, I'd never leave."
A.A. Milne

this is my wonderful youth group, and a few weirdo's too!

this is my friend Nikki, she's a model, and in the September edition of Seventeen magazine! Congrats girl!

hahaha isnt this the greatest one of Brett you've ever seen!!! i think so, look at andrew in the back there too! its great! this pic was the only reason i got a blog in the first place

this is for mr. TOO GOOD...my ex

so mr. too good, this is how i feel about you now... and ya know what, i'm over it. I'm glad you thought i'd follow you where ever, but the truth is, i wont. i'm not gonna let you walk all over me and its not gonna happen. And i know your reading this, and i'd dont feel too sorry. in your words... "I hope you have a nice life too"

in the words of Avril Lavigne....
Lets talk this over
Its not like we're dead
was it something i did
was it something you sad
dont leave me hangin
in a city so dead
caught up so high
on such a breakable thread

You were all the things i thought i new
and i thought we could be
you were everything,everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
and all of the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell you i'm difficult
but so are they
but they don't know me
do the even know you?
all that they talk about
all the stuff that you do

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

Its nice to know you were there
thanks for actin like you cared
and makin me feel like i was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watchin as i fall
and makin me feel we were done

You were everything everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretendin
so much for my happy ending.

I know its corny, but i dont care anymore, i'm glad that i got to experience a good year and a half with you and that I thought i loved you, now i can say, that i never have loved, just lost. and life goes on with or without you. thank you for teaching me one of the hardest lessions i've ever had to learn, but i'm glad that it happened now, and not later. so as you said to me "have a nice life" i pray you do the same , and i hope that you get everything you've ever wanted out of life and you're new girlfriend.

School Rocks!!!

Ok today ROcked! like cus i go to a different school for my last two classes, i didnt have to go because our county had a half day! so today i only went to school for 2 hours and got out at 10:30!!!! how great is that! huh? cant answer can you, cus its just that cool! this is great, except now i have to clean the house, but its ok cus i'm not at school!!! well not too much to write except i have some dirt on some people who are either going out, or want to go out, (i'm still digging) its great though! well talked to susie last night, she said she's doing fine incase anyone wanted to know or was wondering.... well excited for youth tonight, Katie might come! well ttyl

Quote of the day

There's no better witness to the watchers of the world, than a believer who stands firm in their faith.

haha

Wow, today was a GREAT day, I saw some cool people, and met a cool person. yea, it was great! i was reeeal excited. Well work was pretty cool cus it only took us 15 mins. to close when it usually takes us like an hour and a half! i was sooo excited. wow , well just wanted to make my page look a lil fuller, cus i'm really not that interesting to write that cool of stuff. ttyl

The anniversary of September 11. Today is a sad day, I was watching all the stuff about what acctually happened, i can still remember where i was when the first plane hit. It just brings a sence of sorrow, yet happiness knowing that all those people hopefully went to heaven. but its a sore subject, so i'll move on to a different one.
Well miss brittney's surprise birthday party is today, its gonna be really exciting. I got her some really cool slippers, they fart when you squeeze them, i almost wanted to keep them for myself, but i got over it and wrapped them for her, i really wanted to get her some like homer stuff that farted or burped, but the slippers will do, well not much more, i'll take some pictures tonight to post on here tomorrow , well gonna go get ready for the Par~teh!

whats with guys these days?

Wow, today was VERY interesting, aparently I looked really cute , or have some kind of guy magnent today! Two guys asked me on a date today! I was like, where did that come from? It was sooo strange, see and I might have said yes, but I cant date a guy unless he's willing to go to church with me, and if I bring a guy to church with me, somebody's gonna tell Susie, in turn is gonna get me into trouble with her. She'll sick like Erik or Luke or Brett, or Josh, or someone with power to kick my butt. OUCH. that would hurt, so I defenetly said no. I felt really bad though , cus one of the guys is a really good guy, well so I think, I've never seen him away from school though, so who knows, he might be like every other guy in the world. HAHA. but yea, today was a good day. I talked to susie yesterday, i felt bad cus she's just having a hard time with school cus all her classes are far apart, and work is far away and stuff, but susie if ur reading this, I love you and it will be ok. and everyone else out here does too! Well if anyone is interested you could call me up or im me and we could hang out cus I'm supperly bored! lol. well gonna go be cool and talk to ppl . adios

Quote of the Week: I won't give into anything.... but temptation.

Look at the nationsand watch and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.
Habakkuk 1:5

look my two favorite people in the ENTIRE world!  

Thanks Brett for makin this for me, cus now I cant ever be just a danish, i have to be a doughnut. haha, but its cool 

Finally HOME!!!

Wow, its been a loonnnggg trip, and i'm glad to be home. i've missed this place alot, sad to say, cus before i left, i hated it! lol. but my sis is a big ol' college student now. Its a cool school. even my dad said he liked it, doesnt like the price, but likes the school. but it was sooo awesome. Except for the fact that Rufus broke down , and susie didn't come home with me. and i hated the flight home, it was such a hassle. ok, first time on an airplane that i can remember, and i get to the airport, and i get selected for the FULL search. Everything.... then, our flight gets delayed for 3 hours because of bad weather in Atlanta. so when we get to atlanta, we missed our connection to carolina cus our flight was so delayed. but since they booked us on a different flight for the morning, they never gave us our luggage, so we stayed the night in a hotel with none of our stuff. the next morning, we get up , and get selected for the Full search AGAIN. so i go through it all again, and we get up to the terminal, and our flight was delayed AGAIN because of weather in carolina. and so we get on the plane, and power goes out on the flight so i'm thinkin, oh this is great, and i'm gonna fly in this thing? ... it was horrible, but finally got home safe and sound and ready to see everyone tonight at youth! well ttyl

hmmm

well today's the day, i say today, cus its like 2 30 in the morning and so thats why . but today we're leaving for cali, RIGHT after church, sux, but hey, she's gotta go to school somewhere. well not too much to write except for it sux that she has to leave so yea, ttyl

YAY

I was SOO excited! I was all having a down kinda day at work, cus i was stuck in back, then like everyone i know came into the store, just as i was going on line to put stuff back , and i saw my lil girl! samantha, brett, carrie , tere, ray, amy, and vick ALL came to see me! it made my day! like then after the football game between southwest and ragsdale (southwest, my team, lost 52 to 0) how bad is that? well anyway, like everyone i know came to see me after that, except katie and maliha! i'm mad at u two! you both promised to come in and see me, hornaday too! i'm mad at you all, but i'm excited that who did come came! i love you guys! well its like 1 in the morning and i'm talking to not so cool people on IM. i'm kinda bored. people are annoying, whats up with people asking ghetto questions? w/e. oh, and anyone from youth that may read this, i appologize for snapping at you guys cus i was in a poopie mood , and you all pretty much know why. so, i'm gonna go pretend like i'm gonna go to bed.

my oh my, isn't my niece the CUTEST! I'm soo glad she's related to me! cus i am definetly that cute. *fart noises with hand* 

wow, what a kodak moment! isn't that great, too bad she's LEAVING ME!  

so, does he just attract things to his head or what?! poor girls, they never saw it coming 

wow oh wow, i think we gave him brain damage. oh wait, thats impossible, you cant give a retarded person brain damage 

megan eaten by the freezer! she thought it was gonna swallow her whole 

hahaha

hahaha guess what i finally got it! i can post pictures! its sooo great! and brett's gonna hate me when i put this one on, but i have to. well not too much going on, today. I feel kinda bad though, cus lately all i do is cry, and i know why, but its hard to say out loud, but people are really starting to help me, like everyone at church, always reasurring me that they'll be there for me. that helps a LOT. but its still hard, like everytime someone mentions my sister, i start crying, people must think i'm a baby or something but whatever cus they dont understand that she's my best friend, my mom, my inspiration, my coworker, my everything, she pretty much raised me since i was little. How can you not be upset when they go away? who knows. well gonna go put black mail pics up of EVERYONE! hahaha!