haha

Well today is great! i'm sittin in marketing talkin to laela on im and sittin at the computer right next to her. its great enjoyment till it kicks you off. i hate school computers. they suck big time. man i really wish i could get some music on this thing, its too quiet for me right now. just chillin, i'm supposed to be doin some sort of career project, but seriously, who wants a career? not me. at least not right now. haha. well today's gonna suck, i didnt do half of my homework for english and i'm probly gonna have a quiz on it today, but hey, i can make up enough answers to get me through it, thats what i did with huck finn! haha. its bad, but life goes on right. We dont need no stinkin english! well guess i'll be goin, Brett, you should get off your away message once in awhile so that i have someone to talk to during the day....

In KJ52's words...."Only one God, one love, one way" from the song Dear Slim

Voices in my head

So... you should feel special, you're one of the only people me and the other 29 voices in my head can agree on that you've got it goin on! haha! I have no idea what that was, but it was def. funny to me! AHHH flying Gumby! sorry, gumby started to fly off the table. ok I have a feelin i know what you're thinkin, She's def. on some major drugs, but i'm def. not! hahaha just about 10 shots of expresso again. i think i may need another intervention...haha.. 48 step program will do i guess. just cus it will take the 4 times to get it through my head. haha...well gettin a lil delirious...wow, thats a good band. oh yea, November 7...everyone I know ...the Joy Williams concert is that night, and we should def. go! well thats all for now!

School Prayer

Now I sit me down in school
Where praying is against the rule
For this great nation under God
Finds mention of Him very odd.

If Scripture now the class recites,
It violates the Bill of Rights.
And anytime my head I bow
Becomes a Federal matter now.

Our hair can be purple, orange or green,
That's no offense: it's a freedom scene.
The law is specific, the law is precise.
Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice.

For praying in a public hall
Might offend someone with no faith at all.
In silence alone we must meditate,
God's name is prohibited by the state.

We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks,
and pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks.
they've outlawed guns, but FIRST the Bible.
To quote the Good Book makes me liable.

We can elect a pregnant Senior Queen,
And the 'unwed daddy,' our Senior King.
It's 'inappropriate' to teach right from wrong,
We're taught that such 'judgments' do not belong.

We can get our condoms and birth controls,
Study witchcraft, vampires and totem poles.
But the Ten Commandments are not allowed,
No word of God must reach this crowd.

It's scary here i must confess,
When chaos reigns the school's a mess.
So, Lord, this silent plea I make:
Should I be shot; My soul please take!

Amen

Angel
Like an angel you were sent from above.
With all the hopes and dreams of becoming something you love.

You fill my heart with love and joy,
Something so precious you can't destroy.

I knew that you were heaven sent.
Your face always looking so sweet and innocent.

Some people spend a lifetime waiting
for someone to be sent to them like you.

All those candle's that i blew.
Just wishing for you.
I knew aht it was true,
That lifetime I spent was worth waiting for you.


~"Isn't it funny, when you are day dreaming outside the bus window about the person you love, that doesn't love you, and the person that truly loves you is sitting right next to you."

- I dont exactly know why, but i felt like writing about love, so there it is, but i didn't write the poem i just felt like it related to how i felt right now, so its permanetly borrowed for the time being.

attack of the killer bunny!!!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! run for your life!!! its the attack of the killer bunny! i'm going to knaw you to death. haha, thats what me and Emu did at work today! it was soooo funny! then, we wore our hats upside down and backwards with our collars popped up! we were pimpin like that! I love you Emu! (Emily) haha. well had a good week, glad its FINALLY over. i did do a pretty cool project in english today though that helped me realize what i'm really frustrated about. we wrote our own Declaration of Independence on anything we wanted freedom from. and i wrote about society, society is all about the ways of the world, conformity, and drama. and those are all the things i HATE., and i dont like hating things. but i'm excited cus me katie and maliha are going to hang out tomorrow and watch "The Stupids", and "1776", and shrek 2, and a bunch of other movies, its gonna be so great. i havent seen maliha since she came to see me at work like in June! girl, you rock and i love you! well, i'm gonna go chat to cool people like katie and ryan, and other cool people who usually end up reading this ghetto stuff! haha. i love you guys!

so...new day

yea, todays a good day, i guess. well had an awesome night at youth last night, watchin everyone gettin along so well makes me want to take back what i wrote, but not completely. today was cool cus i'm running for Vice president of community service in FCCLA and I gave my speech today...so hopefully i got it! it'd be rockin! yea! well just talkin to people right now ya know, same ol same ol.
This is all for katie, cus she def. wanted me to devote something to her. so this is it! i love you katie! your a great person and i love you so much, i'm glad to see that God is working through you so much and know that you can do whatever you want as long as you do it for the right reasons. I hope you know that i'm always here for you whatever you need or would like to talk about!
well tahts gonna be it for me tonight. i'm gonna go talk to people who usually talk back. haha.

"I love being a blonde, it makes it really easy to surprise people" Pamela Anderson

wow

so, it happened again. someone told me that i should date a certain someone who is a crazy idea to date! and p.s. alicia...I'm very angry with you for that! thats the like 12th person who said it, and michelle said it tuesday too! whats up with people sayin this?! i'm startin to think there are some things goin on that i dont know about! its bad! but its ok cus i dont like him like that....I think...no, i know! just kiddin. i know i dont like him like that. that would be Very AWKWARD! but yea, then i got asked out by hornaday again today, what am i supposed to tell him?! he's cool and all, but not like that. so i invited him to church, so even if he comes to see me, at least he'll come to church and try to clean up his life. but yea... i dont have much more to write except that. ttyl

“It is easier to find a score of men wise enough to discover the truth than to find one intrepid enough, in the face of opposition, to stand up for it.”

well...

Today was ok, i got to sit in church today! yay. But for some reason it just wasnt the same. I just felt really distracted for some reason, like i'd start to daze off and think about like other things not related to church, i was just sittin there with a blank stare. i felt kinda bad, but there was really nothing i could do, but then like pastor steve would look at me and i'd be like "huh?" But its ok. i guess. I just wish things were like it was before Suzi left. Now I just feel like i dont belong, I wasnt really close to anyone but everyone was close to her, so when she left i was like wow. what am i supposed to do now. it just sucks cus i used to think that i was really close to alot of the people at church and realized that i was really only close to her. but its ok, hopefully i'm just crazy and missin her. Like today, i was invited to go out with the young adults, but it was so different, cus it used to be like Zack Josh Susie Me and we all got along really well, now like cus susie's gone, zack doesnt talk to me, i talk to josh sometimes, luke never talks to me, except on occasion, and Erik never comes. so its like, wow, where do i belong now. but whatever. life goes on. I kinda wish that young adults never left cus now its like all drama in youth group and it feels like there are people who come just so they dont sit at home, and thats ok, i just wish that people would start commiting themselves and applying themselves to the Lord instead of just bringing in drama and stupid stuff to a place where no one really wants to hear about "why you're not dating him, or she's not talking to me because i went out with her 2 ex boyfriend" crap. i'm so tired of it. I just wish that people would mature a little and just i dont know, dont bring more drama than we already have. ( sorry i'm writing alot, but i'm frustrated ) But sometimes i just look around and people talk and write notes, and sleep and stuff in church and youth group, and how can you call yourself a christian if you dont want to listen to what God has promised you? I mean, thats what life is all about, none of the boyfriends or girlfriends or whoever can give you eternal life, so why do they get involved in it if you wont get anything out of it. Its stupid. I just really want to see a change in our youth group and church to show that God is the reason we go, NOT for social gatherings and talking and stuff. sure you can and should get to know the people who you go to church with and love them and be friends with them, but go to church to learn about God. I mean, today in sunday school, it felt like me and brittney were the only ones who were awake, and i think all of us should apply ourselves a lot more than we have because it doesnt feel like we're a youth group anymore. and it bothers me. well thats all i'm gonna write today, maybe tomorrow i'll be a lil less frustrated and be able to write more sensible things.

I had the greatest day today! I got to hang out with kids all day and not have to worry about anything but keeping them alive... which can be difficult at times, but today it was easy. I love everyone who trusted me with their kids today because i had the greatest time. I love you all. I'm mad at ppl who paid me though, cus there's no reason why i got paid that much, therefore , its all goin in the offerin plate on sunday.... well after i get them cashed. haha. banks aren't open 24/7 ya know! haha well it was great. cus we played twister, and had a tea party, and played foosball, and table hockey, and played cowboys and climbed me as a tree, and just had a great time, watched a movie and played other games! it was exciting! well not much more to write cus that was my entire day! well better skiddadle...

Quote of the day..."Never forget me, Because if I thought you would, I'd never leave."
A.A. Milne

this is my wonderful youth group, and a few weirdo's too!

this is my friend Nikki, she's a model, and in the September edition of Seventeen magazine! Congrats girl!

hahaha isnt this the greatest one of Brett you've ever seen!!! i think so, look at andrew in the back there too! its great! this pic was the only reason i got a blog in the first place

this is for mr. TOO GOOD...my ex

so mr. too good, this is how i feel about you now... and ya know what, i'm over it. I'm glad you thought i'd follow you where ever, but the truth is, i wont. i'm not gonna let you walk all over me and its not gonna happen. And i know your reading this, and i'd dont feel too sorry. in your words... "I hope you have a nice life too"

in the words of Avril Lavigne....
Lets talk this over
Its not like we're dead
was it something i did
was it something you sad
dont leave me hangin
in a city so dead
caught up so high
on such a breakable thread

You were all the things i thought i new
and i thought we could be
you were everything,everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
and all of the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell you i'm difficult
but so are they
but they don't know me
do the even know you?
all that they talk about
all the stuff that you do

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

Its nice to know you were there
thanks for actin like you cared
and makin me feel like i was the only one
its nice to know we had it all
thanks for watchin as i fall
and makin me feel we were done

You were everything everything that i wanted
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretendin
so much for my happy ending.

I know its corny, but i dont care anymore, i'm glad that i got to experience a good year and a half with you and that I thought i loved you, now i can say, that i never have loved, just lost. and life goes on with or without you. thank you for teaching me one of the hardest lessions i've ever had to learn, but i'm glad that it happened now, and not later. so as you said to me "have a nice life" i pray you do the same , and i hope that you get everything you've ever wanted out of life and you're new girlfriend.

School Rocks!!!

Ok today ROcked! like cus i go to a different school for my last two classes, i didnt have to go because our county had a half day! so today i only went to school for 2 hours and got out at 10:30!!!! how great is that! huh? cant answer can you, cus its just that cool! this is great, except now i have to clean the house, but its ok cus i'm not at school!!! well not too much to write except i have some dirt on some people who are either going out, or want to go out, (i'm still digging) its great though! well talked to susie last night, she said she's doing fine incase anyone wanted to know or was wondering.... well excited for youth tonight, Katie might come! well ttyl

Quote of the day

There's no better witness to the watchers of the world, than a believer who stands firm in their faith.

haha

Wow, today was a GREAT day, I saw some cool people, and met a cool person. yea, it was great! i was reeeal excited. Well work was pretty cool cus it only took us 15 mins. to close when it usually takes us like an hour and a half! i was sooo excited. wow , well just wanted to make my page look a lil fuller, cus i'm really not that interesting to write that cool of stuff. ttyl

The anniversary of September 11. Today is a sad day, I was watching all the stuff about what acctually happened, i can still remember where i was when the first plane hit. It just brings a sence of sorrow, yet happiness knowing that all those people hopefully went to heaven. but its a sore subject, so i'll move on to a different one.
Well miss brittney's surprise birthday party is today, its gonna be really exciting. I got her some really cool slippers, they fart when you squeeze them, i almost wanted to keep them for myself, but i got over it and wrapped them for her, i really wanted to get her some like homer stuff that farted or burped, but the slippers will do, well not much more, i'll take some pictures tonight to post on here tomorrow , well gonna go get ready for the Par~teh!

whats with guys these days?

Wow, today was VERY interesting, aparently I looked really cute , or have some kind of guy magnent today! Two guys asked me on a date today! I was like, where did that come from? It was sooo strange, see and I might have said yes, but I cant date a guy unless he's willing to go to church with me, and if I bring a guy to church with me, somebody's gonna tell Susie, in turn is gonna get me into trouble with her. She'll sick like Erik or Luke or Brett, or Josh, or someone with power to kick my butt. OUCH. that would hurt, so I defenetly said no. I felt really bad though , cus one of the guys is a really good guy, well so I think, I've never seen him away from school though, so who knows, he might be like every other guy in the world. HAHA. but yea, today was a good day. I talked to susie yesterday, i felt bad cus she's just having a hard time with school cus all her classes are far apart, and work is far away and stuff, but susie if ur reading this, I love you and it will be ok. and everyone else out here does too! Well if anyone is interested you could call me up or im me and we could hang out cus I'm supperly bored! lol. well gonna go be cool and talk to ppl . adios

Quote of the Week: I won't give into anything.... but temptation.

Look at the nationsand watch and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.
Habakkuk 1:5

look my two favorite people in the ENTIRE world!  

Thanks Brett for makin this for me, cus now I cant ever be just a danish, i have to be a doughnut. haha, but its cool 

Finally HOME!!!

Wow, its been a loonnnggg trip, and i'm glad to be home. i've missed this place alot, sad to say, cus before i left, i hated it! lol. but my sis is a big ol' college student now. Its a cool school. even my dad said he liked it, doesnt like the price, but likes the school. but it was sooo awesome. Except for the fact that Rufus broke down , and susie didn't come home with me. and i hated the flight home, it was such a hassle. ok, first time on an airplane that i can remember, and i get to the airport, and i get selected for the FULL search. Everything.... then, our flight gets delayed for 3 hours because of bad weather in Atlanta. so when we get to atlanta, we missed our connection to carolina cus our flight was so delayed. but since they booked us on a different flight for the morning, they never gave us our luggage, so we stayed the night in a hotel with none of our stuff. the next morning, we get up , and get selected for the Full search AGAIN. so i go through it all again, and we get up to the terminal, and our flight was delayed AGAIN because of weather in carolina. and so we get on the plane, and power goes out on the flight so i'm thinkin, oh this is great, and i'm gonna fly in this thing? ... it was horrible, but finally got home safe and sound and ready to see everyone tonight at youth! well ttyl