Life's your canvass, you have one pallat...pick a color. make sure that it represents you, and not what anyone else wants, its not art unless it comes from you're heart. otherwise picaso would have been some crazy guy who made a mess, not a masterpiece. he was still crazy , dont get me wrong, but he felt his work, he didnt try to please anyone, just himself.

in Zacks words....Like a fat girl in a dodge ball game...i'm out!

so...i despise mrs. murphy....ok, i'm in culinary arts lab, well she said she'd excuse labs if we were absent, well she never excused mine, and now on my report card i got a B!!! what is that? its a cp class and i cant even pull an A. if she had excused it, i would have a 96 instead of a freggin 91 ! that makes me soooooooooooooooooooooo mad. but w/e, she's a turtle and i dont like her. but i'm jsut gonna go on my merry lil way and do my crap and give her a bigger reason to not like me. kill her with kindness. thats really mean, i really wont, but i will be nice. i'm just frustrated...how in the world did i get a B in CP CULINARY ARTS?! jeez i hate north carolina grading systems, otherwise i would have a freggin A!!! w/e. i'm out

YAY!!!!!!!!

Congrats to Vic and Amy! You guys deserve this so much! i'm so happy for you!


Children in a Family are like flowers in a bouquet: there's always one determined to face in an opposite direction from the way the arranger desires.
Marcelene Cox
The Family is one of nature's masterpieces.
George Santayana

ba humbug!

lol! i'm just kiddin, i'm not really in a bad mood, i just watched the movie though! i love the muppets! they rock the socks! whats up with me sayin that lately?! i dunno, its gettin on my nerves though. thats strange. well had an interview yesterday with the new theaters, i think i have a pretty good shot, seein as they're hiring 75 people. but yea. youth rocked last night. i love it at bretts house so much more. it was like people acctually talked, more of britt, becca and me, but still! i love it! i'm glad we'll be there for the rest of 40 days of purpose. i was glad that the new kid robbie came. thats awesome how God will bring people to you, and you just have to be kind to them to make an impression of God's love. it's awesome. but anyway. last night rocked too cus i spent the night at mrs. tere's house and we watched a movie then just hung out and talked and i'm just so glad that i have her in my life right now. she just knows exactly what i'm going through and doesnt let me hide anything. she can see right past me when i'm trying to hide something . it really makes me feel loved and special to someone. yea, then this morning, she drove me to school in the porshe! i was like....oh yea, i'm cool now, you got nothing on me! haha, except i was late, so nobody cool saw me except for mr. denton, and he was like, new wheels.? i was like, most def. haha, it was grand. but yea, thats the moral of my story is that i had a great time with mrs. tere last night! oh yea, susie, if you read this and i dont tell you on the phone, Mrs. Chapman says she loves you bunches and says that you were her favorite student last year! (she really did say that)

well peace love and chicken grease..."I understand that you are handicapped by a natural immaturity, and I forgive you" from the movie Armageddon

zipadi do da!!!

So...life goes on, you live, love, learn, and then...



what happens after that. What are we supposed to do after we die, i know we "hopefully" will go to heaven and worship God forever, but will we do anything while we're there? just my pondering question for today.
Susie, I'm so proud of you right now. I heard a story today about a medical missionary, and I just thought of you. I was like "wow, that's what my sister IS doing" because with the faith and love you have, you dont have to go to a foreign country to show Christ's love, but you're willingly going to give up almost every luxury, for people you dont even know will let you live. It just makes me have the greatest respect for you. You don't let anything get into you're way. you always put the joy of others before your own. I've never met anyone who can be compared to you. I just want you to know that no distance will make me love you, or care for you less. and i know that it sucks that we cant talk about stuff like we used towe used to be close, but i know that its hard to have such a crazy schedule it makes it difficult to talk about the little stuff that we used to talk about becuase we were connected at the hip. I want to let you know that before I make any crazy decisions though, i'll let you know what's up. Dont think that just cus you're far away that you're suggetions aren't valid. I'll always listen to what you have to say. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MUCH! lol

Love the Lord your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, with all of your mind, and with all your strength...Mark 12:30.
Nothing should come between your relationship with God, because in the end, He's the only one you'll have left, no earthly relationship will last as long as the Love God gave for us. The love that never goes away. Don't trust instints, they fail you, But God CANNOT fail you. It's impossible, he puts us into situations that he knows we can handle, and he gives us the strenght we need to handle them, if we just look to him then all is good.
Thats it for today....maybe tomorrow we can chat.

hummmmmmm

So, we were at youth last night and it rocked. like Brett hit every point that's been bugging me. That's really all i have to say about youth, is that it rocked. But yea, I got the purpose driven life book last night and started reading. I think its gonna change alot of lives , including mine! i'm more excited about the 40 days of purpose at first i was more like, why, we're here just to eat sleep and whatever, but now i'm finally getting it! I love it! well thats all for today. LUS YA ALL!!!

new slate

ok, well I've completely decided to get rid of all of my grudges towards anyone who may have made me mad, or upset me in anyway. I know that my past blogs have made me look like a complete rebel, (the beer all over me at concerts, me getting mad at the youth group, and to top it all off... a new boyfriend.) but honestly enough, its just a strange mesh of occurances that make me look that way. Just to let anyone ( Susie ) know, that i'm not mad, or sad or upset, i'm just trying to get through life and am too open sometimes about my feelings. I love everyone so much and nothing in the world could change that. NOTHING. If anything, everyone here has made living here so much more enjoyable. I never went to church in Cali, nor did i want to, but here, i'm not dragged to church, i willingly ask for rides and do everything in my power to see you guys as much as i possibly can.
Susie, I know I havent been the best at calling but i'm trying to fix that, just this past month has been extremely stressful, but its all over now that all my things are prioratized, and you my friend, have been placed very near the top! next to God! I love you so much and miss you almost as much!
I love everyone else, and for heavens sake....Don't worry so much about me, I promise I wont let anything bad happen, and I'll be just fine, sometimes I just need time to myself to think things out.
PEACE LOVE AND CHICKEN GREASE......"If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?" Steven Wright.

small quote

"you know Marge, roads are just a suggestion....like pants" thats my blog for the day, Like a fat girl in a dodge ball game....i'm out! smootches

Wendy's

So, waht you guys say we make a midnight run to wendy's. I'm hungry, so i'm thinkin its a good idea. well not much more to write except. um,. yea, thats about it.well, i'm kinda mad at someone, but wahts new. he knows who he is, cus i just stopped talking to him today! haha. what is it with people wanting to get revenge?! why dont you just tell me what you freggin want to say and say it, not be like "oh the wind told me" what is that. idk, thats part of the imiturity that bothers the poop outa me! thats my post for today. ttyl

My Appology

I'm so sorry for my last post. I know that it was completely out of line and am realizing why God put me into this situation. And mostly I think it's for patience. I know that I had no right to say the things I said, nor do I want to hurt anyone's feelings. I've thought about it alot since Wed. and I've decided to put other things off and just focus on what needs to be done in my life, and those things right now are 1. God 2. Friendships 3. Loyalty 4. Love 5. Patience. Not exactly in that order, except for number one. I just really want to appologize for doing what I've done. Susie, you really helped me realize all of this. Thank you! I love you so much, and sometimes I want to blame you for leaving, but you're gone for a good purpose and I'm so proud of you. Well I'm gonna go get ready for my dinner and a movie, I'll see you all on Sunday.

so

yea, today, everyone got on my nerves. apparently everyone isnt captain obvious and cant see that when people are talking, you should shut your face and listen. TAKE notes, not PASS notes. Jeez, i 'm kinda glad i'm failing out of school this year, cus i hate stupid people. i think thats why i loved wesney's class so much, everyone just kept their mouth shut and did what they were supposed to do. i guess its cus how i was raised to be mature. and it bothers me that people cant even have the common sense to listen when someones talking. or when people who dont know what they're doing, try and tell me what to do , when i know whats going on. i really wanna say what the boy from PAY IT FORWARD said, he said is the world just "poop" (edited for content) but honestly, that's how i feel. i'm so frustrated with people that i just wanna cry, honestly thats how much people bother me. Carrie and Brett said something that kinda hit me though, if i dont like it, why dont i change it. and i would, but i dont wanna be the enemy. and with the people that i'm not that close with, i know i would become the horrible person who told them how to live their lives. maybe thats not what they would say but i would probly say the same thing if i was in their position with me sayin that to them. I told carrie that i was going to go to a friends youth group next week and i thought she was going to rip my head off, and i told her how i felt, and i feel bad, but what else am i supposed to do? if anyone has any suggestions, please tell me. because right now i'm torn. If i leave, i leave everything that i know in north carolina, if i stay, i lose everything i've gained here. I'm gonna leave with that. and if i end up hurting someone, i'm sorry, i dont mean to.

Well. since everyone's gonna find out soon enough, this is my new b/f... bad pic though, he looks different without a camera in his face

hummm

Well My sis found out that I have a boyfriend now...uh oh. and she's making me tell everyone before she does. Its scary, i'm afraid of Tere slapping me on the back of the head. Hard. and i just found out that brett knows now, uh oh. i love you...dont hurt me... I'm grounded....i'll just go to my room now. lol j/k. I will be when my dad finds out i'm going out with him. he doesnt want me to date...i think. But its okay cus i really want to bring him to church, but i dont think that will happen cus he's into his church and youth group. so its ok. But yea, I went to the Everyday Sunday concert with Katie on sunday and oh my gosh! it ROCKED THE SOCKS. Me and katie were nerds and jumped up and down the WHOLE time. we were like the cool punk kids, only not. and on Saturday, me and (no name yet) went to zonefest! it rocked. until someone spilled beer on me. but its ok cus we were leaving at that point anyway. but yea, my whole, i'll get cool pics didnt exactly work out, seeing as i forgot my camera. but its all gravy. well gonna go to bed since i have two hours of make-up time in the morning. YAY 6 30 i get to sit in the office! SCORE! NOT. well have a fine feathered day my fine feathered friends

i love you both so much...this is a shout out to my peeps in Nevada! Megan and Josh, you both have changed so much, but thats why i love you! Josh , remember that you're the ORIGINAL SHUA!

This is my buddy chelsey. this is another shout out to NV

Coolio

well today was pretty cool i guess. went to zonefest and it rocked, well for what i saw of it. i got there at 1, it started at 11 30. then i had to leave at 3 30. but i ended up seein Avion, pat mcgee ban, toby lightman, and some of sister hazel. i left in the middle of their show. but i did see josh and contemplated throwing a hot dog at his head. but then i didnt cus some jerk spilled a beer all over me. like head to toe covered in beer . i cried for like an hour. but then i went to work and probly am going to get fired tomorrow, but its ok cus i'm freggin tired of that STUPID place. but my boyfriend came to see me tonight so it was ok. well not much more to say except that i'm happy to go to church tomorrow. i've been waitin for this day for 2 weeks! yay! and Everyday Sunday is gonna rock tomorrow. plus the fact that Kids in the way are supposed to open for them! ROCK ON. i'll try to get some good pics to post on here for tomorrow. well gonna get going.

sympathy page

this is all for MALIHA! i love you more than katie...ok i love you gals both the same. but mal, you'll always have a special place in my heart . and ps...welcome to the quicky mart! this candy store is closed! great times great times. i miss those tournaments! we so gotta watch shrek 2, and you could be my donkey, and i'll be the ogre and sprout lil white heads when left out in the sun too long. look at that, what is that, its hideous! (david) hahahahahah that was a great day! dude, girl you rock the socks! and shoes, or slippers! hahaha . well now you cant say i love katie more than you! hahaha. luv you bunches...smootches!