katie, aimee, and myself, also at circus circus

me by the river, the first day out...i 'm white, i know

my niece is the cutest!

Your Birthdate: April 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable. This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research. You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

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okay, one day left, then off to see my mom! yay, i'm gone for an entire month, hopefully i have lots of time to think and reflect on how i feel, because there are so many emotions i'm feeling right now that i cant even comprehend how to deal with them, a lot of what i'm feeling is narrowing down to two situations, church and work. Its hard to deal with those two right now, but work is becoming easier with each passing day. church is getting harder with each passing day. But by the end of the trip, i'll know. I'll know how i feel, and the actions i'm going to take, it might be a long transition of pain, but it's going to be in God's hands, thats the only thing that can be said, Susie has helped me a lot with this decision, and won't know the final result until it's final, but i'll try to keep ya'll updated. I wish i could say more about it, but i can't for personal reasons. you guys should understand. i say you guys as in brett and susie. haha. okay, well i'm going to go finish packing, and getting ready for nevada. love you guys!

Okay, so today's payday and i go in and cash my check, i only pull out less than half my pay check, and save the rest, good right? okay, well 2 hours later, i'm out of money and complaining that i've spent all of it. I'm a horrible person to take to the store, because all i want to do is spend my money. of course, i go to the dvd section, and see what kind of useless movies are for sale, and buy the two that everyone would over look, but i think its cool, i bought Twister, and Charlottes Web, two of my favorite movie's , then i go and get 2 hand bags that arent needed, hair ties, toe rings, 2 bathing suit bottoms,and a volley ball, all things that if used, will not be seen very often, except the volley ball. Then we go to target, (my favorite store in the world) and i preceed to buy another pair of sunglasses, another pair of sandals, a mouse pad, stickers, a wierd clock, and more hair ribbon ties. then drive to AC more, onther one of my favorite stores, where i buy more useless stuff, sharpe's (they had cool colors) stickers, more stickers, more hair ties, a crochet needle, ribbon, and other useless stuff. haha, I'm a dork, nothing i bought is conventional, but worth the fun of finding useless stuff to spend my hard earned money on. that was my day, oh, and i saw some of my favorite people, Chanel, Kelly I, Nichole, steve, and of course my partner in good, (we're superhero's, so we're not partners in crime) Brian. YAY, that was my day, great fun of sleeping, eating, and shopping, my three FAVORITE things to do!

Oh yea, check out my favorite Band's music, its "The Everglow" by Mae, thanks to Brian for introducing me to them!

okay, so yesterday, it hurt, i basically cleaned out a year and half of savings in one nice swoop, i had to pay for plane tickets yesterday, and go shopping, it was HORRIBLE i walked out of the bank with a sick feeling in my stomache. but it went away as soon as i started shopping. haha. but i bought really cute clothes, and had a day to myself to think... wait, i didnt do that, haha, i just went shopping and got my nails done, and just hung out with myself, it was beautiful. okay, well i guess i could go to church, even though its only 9:42, and i'm ready, and church doesnt start for another hour. haha, and i only got 4 hours of sleep, but i'm hyper, so it's all good. okay, i'm out, love ya'll

okay, so a lil dilemma, i dont know what to do... not really, i'm not in a dilemma at all, i just needed a good catchy line. are you strong enough to be my man? haha, i'm listening to sheryl crow, i love her! its like all the old school songs she used to sing. I'm bored, just sittin in susies room looking at all the poems i've written, and how pathetic most of them are. haha. how sad is this 9 pm on a friday night, and what am i doing? ... writing a blog to no one because no one but susie ever reads this. haha. okay, i'm gonna call people and see if they wanna hang out. love you all! ps... 35 days till i'm a senior.

man, i'm tired, i dont know why, but lately all i wanna do is sleep. Not much going on, just had a pool party for youth, for Jason's birthday, too bad katie and rebecca, and ozzy, and andrew are the only people who talk to me, i always say i dont really care, but in all honesty, i really do. But nothing i can do about it. I kinda wish the people i invited to come tonight had come, but its okay, life goes on.... whoa how the life goes on... sorry, got distracted. Well i think thats it for tonight, i'll post later, and all that nice stuff!

i promised you i'd never give up, if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad, if it makes you happy, then why are you so sad? ~Sheryl Crow

Good past few days, i missed being at cfc this week, but katie and i went to lexington to Mt. Olevit church, which is where one of the groups from ccc was from, so we got to see all those people, except, katie was allergic to something and we had to leave 10 mins into service, but it was still fun seeing all those people again.
I cant wait to go to nevada, its gonna be great fun, i leave july 27, and come back august 8. Its gonna be sooooo much fun, basically, I REALLY wanna show katie what reno is all about. I've been talking to my mom, and she's got some really cool stuff she said we could do, one day i know we're gonna go up to pyramid lake and go jet skiing, since katie's only been on one in her life. and show her the lake, like the pyramids in the middle, and the coves and stuff, since i haven't been there in SOOO long, its gonna be nice to get in the cold water. Then one day we're gonna go up to Twin Bridges, its a big waterfall up by Lake Tahoe, and climb the 5 miles to the top.... btw, i've made it so close to the top, but never to the top. but its so cool, cus it's all granite rock to the top. and then we're gonna go to Lake Tahoe, and show her how pretty it is, and how its cleaner than your bath water, its awesome, and then we're gonna go to Hot August Nights, which is a big festival that reno has every first week of august, where hot rodder's from all around the country come to display their cars, and no car there is from 1960 or past, and at night, they all drive right through downtown where they close the streets for them, and everyone is dressed in 50's stuff, the entire town goes crazy, its so awesome, me and katie are even making poodle skirts! then lets see, we're gonna just hang out at the lake, and around town, i'm hoping i'm gonna see a few of my friends, like nancy , megan, chelsey, josh, and kim, but who knows, well i'm out for the day, just thought i'd share what i'm REALLY excited about!

my favorite thing from the long day in the hospital, it was a sign as you were walking in, and it just makes me smile!

Aaralyn Grace, born 07/06/05, at 8:56 pm, weighed 8lbs and was 20 1/2 inches long

okay, so yesterday morning, i get woken up with... "its time" me.."time for what?" ...."what do people normally say its time for?" me.."I dont know, what time is it (getting grumpy)" "okay, well i'm going to the store for flowers and a teddy bear" "AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Carrie and Brett... BABY!" hahaha, the other voice was my sister telling me that carrie went into labor! I was sooo excited, yet i didnt get to shower or anything. so i got to hang out at the hospital with miss samantha, brett, and carrie's family, and miss tere, while we waited for carrie to give birth. well by 6 30 nothing had happened, so Q and I decided that nothing would, and we went to youth, and never got a phone call, and so as i'm leaving youth, to go back to the hospital, i call amy, see how she's doing, and i call 4 minutes too late, carrie had Aaralyn Grace, at 8:56 pm on 07/06/05 she weighed 8 lbs and was 20 1/2 inches long, she's a beautiful baby girl, and i'm so happy for Carrie and Brett, they did an awesome job! YAY, its baby time!

okay, so good or the bad first? the good? sounds good to me! okay, so it was fourth of july, and i got to sleep in till 12: 25, i saw brian today, which he made me smile! and i saw chanel, and me and jason wore matching shirts today! um okay, on to the bad.... dun dun dun.....
I didnt get enough sleep, i was still tired as no other, i didnt get dinner till 12 40 am, and it took 10 mins in the drive thru at wendy's, it was july 4, meaning , everyone and their mom gets ice cream before the fireworks, which steve didnt think would happen, but i knew it would because i worked last year, and no one would listen to me, but we made more money tonight, than we did last night! it was horrible, and i only had 4 people and myself, but then 2 of them left, leaving susan closing backroom, will closing line, and me doing money and lobby, and floors in all three, because i'm cool like that and can close like a beast! haha. i'm so tired though, betsy, our floor machine... (no offense to anyone named betsy, thats just what her name is) is heavy, because she's broken, and so as i pushed the thing, water was leaking everywhere, and i had to take a rag and do it by hand.... eeeek, it was grosse, but then its all good because we were outa there at 12:25, and thats good, cus sometimes with even more closer's , it takes a lot longer! then i mentioned something about hanging out with brian after close, but because it was so late, nothing could be done, so no coffee for kristy tonight, and i'm really tired and grumpy, but its okay, and carrie still hasn't popped out a baby yet!

okay, end vent.
hope everyone has a wonderful night, or whats left of it! love you guys! happy 4 of july

hey there, i know, its hard to feel like i dont care at all,where you are and how you feel with these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on, slow things down, or speed them up. Not enough, or way too much. how are you wheni 'm gone?
you know you do you kill me well, you like it too and i can tell, you never stop until, my final breath is gone, so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight, or die. Spare me just three last words, " I love you is all she heard, i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever. and i cant make it on my own, because my heart is in ohio, so cut my wrists and black my eyes so i can fall asleep tonight, or die, because you kill me.

sorry about ragging on people in my last post, but i'm tired of it. i was looking at pictures this morning, and its so weird to see how much everyone's changed, like i remember in 9th grade, i had SHORT blonde hair, and was skinny, and then like susie, used to be blonde, and like, just all my friends who've changed sooooo much, its so weird, but cool in a way i guess, well now that i've remenissed, i'm going to go get my hair cut, i'll see ya'll later

hey there, i know, its hard to feel like i dont care at all,where you are and how you feel with these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on, slow things down, or speed them up. Not enough, or way too much. how are you wheni 'm gone?
you know you do you kill me well, you like it too and i can tell, you never stop until, my final breath is gone, so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight, or die. Spare me just three last words, " I love you is all she heard, i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever. and i cant make it on my own, because my heart is in ohio, so cut my wrists and black my eyes so i can fall asleep tonight, or die, because you kill me.

sorry about ragging on people in my last post, but i'm tired of it. i was looking at pictures this morning, and its so weird to see how much everyone's changed, like i remember in 9th grade, i had SHORT blonde hair, and was skinny, and then like susie, used to be blonde, and like, just all my friends who've changed sooooo much, its so weird, but cool in a way i guess, well now that i've remenissed, i'm going to go get my hair cut, i'll see ya'll later

I've noticed something that makes me so mad, and almost so mad to the point of tears. Some people change when they get into relationships. and its not , oh, i'm gonna hang out with them today, and we'll do lunch later, its the, hey, since i'm in a relationship, i'm never gonna talk to you again. its the, hey, i'm better than you because i have someone i'm infatuated with, and dont want to talk to anyone, kinda attitude. I've realized i've lost 3 really good friends in the past 9 months because of it. or at least i thought they were really good friends, but who knows. i mean, we went from the , hey wats up, to hanging out all the time, now we're to the point of " so yea, hey" kinda relationship. i hate when people change for someone, i mean, yea, you have to change a lil at least, but you can't block everyone else out, you have to keep your friends, because you may not always be in a relationship with this person, then who are you going to turn to if you blocked all of your friends out the first week you started dating? specially when you claim to be desperatly in love, after a week of dating. i can almost guarentee, unless you've been friends for some time, you're not gonna have a good relationship, and if you do and decide to get married, its not gonna be the greatest thing in your life. but whatever, ugggg, it just makes me so mad, that i've lost 3 friends because they ditched me when they got into a relationship. whatever, vbs is good, cant wait for tonight, i get to blow my nose on my sister!

well just got home from work, forgot to clock out, its okay though, it'll be fixed in the morning, um, work sucked, but since it sucked i'm not gonna talk about it. lets see, i would appreciate it if people were still praying for my friend, prayers are always welcome, i'm glad they're alright, um, VBS starts tomorrow... well today now, church is in a few hours, its gonna be weird in the fellowship hall, cus it hasnt been that way in over a year, its gonna bring back lots of memories of when i first moved here, specially since its summer. um, not much else going on, i'm excited to be serengetti betty, its gonna rock! not much going on, guess i'll check in later when i'm not tired and grumpy, oh, and susie, i'm sorry if i've been grumpy, well i know i have, and i'm sorry, i really do love having you home, and i dont want you to go back, but its meant to be! love all ya'll and remember, "Know God" *bible point for VBS day 1, have a great night!

um, come to realization, that I love my friends, and i really want everyone to be praying, specially for someone in particular, i wont say name's and i wont say what happened, but i'm just very glad that they're alive today, and i if "they" were to have passed, i would be devistated, crushed, and completely blown away, because i know that God has major plans for you, and without you, i dont know how i would get through some days, you truely brighten my day, make me laugh, and smile, whenever i talk to you! you're one of my best friends, and I know that God kept you here for one particular reason... because he knew how much it would hurt, all the people who love you, especially me, and the people who love you, love you more than you can imagine, because you're caring, honest, and one of the best people i've ever met in my entire life, and i love you!

Oh my Ga, CCC was so awesome! I can't even describe how great it was, i would be able to do it with pictures, but smart one here forgot a camera, so hopefully my cmg will email me pics to be able to post for you. But it was so great, the first day we went to Arrie Ellis's house, who is the mayor of Earl, a town in lincoln county NC. and we did yard work, and painted her porch, and her house, but we didnt finish, then tuesday, we started our 2 day project, which was to fix rotted wood on this lady's porch and in her living room, and it was difficult because it was so much more work than expected with the porch, because the original builder of the porch had no idea what he was doing. but anyway, that took up tuesday and wednesday, then thursday, we got our last full day project, which was to pull up lanolium (sp) and lay new tile on a lady's kitchen floor. Well it was all good, except that the project was about an hour and 15 mins or so away, so we get there around 10:30, the people don't even talk to us, and once we pull up the lanolium, there's the sticky paper stuff stuck to the floor, well being unprepared for this, we start trying to peel it up with crowbars and stuff, (doesnt work very well) then Jason gets there around 1, gives us the wood, and the tiles, which were peel and stick, thank God, and we start laying boards, and we realize that we can't measure, and we cut alot of wood about an inch off, it was bad, but then by 3 we start tiling her floor, and sara and i end up doing most of the tiling, which i dont mind, but the fact that one of the people just sat there looking at me while i was doing it, but we still had a good time i guess, seeing as we got the job done, we didnt get back until 7:30 , and we're supposed to be back to camp no later than 5, and we didnt leave the work site till 6 15, hahaha, jason came to help us again though, but something happened when we were hooking the fridge back up, and a wire to her ice maker got cut, or broke or something, so on friday jason had to go back and fix it... oops. and then on friday, for our half day job's we got to go back to Arrie Ellis' house and finish her porch and house, it was so awesome because she was so funny! but i'll talk about the people now i guess, starting off was Chris, our camp director, he was goofy, and was good at conversation, but we didnt' get to talk much, Faith, was awesome, she was a Major group leader, and a funny, funny sweet girl, we're staying in touch, then Jason, who was my major group leader, we had our good conversations about his first year as staff, and my first year as a camper, and how he felt that i would be good at a staff member and encouraged me to apply. And he was just so awesome to talk to, and really inspiring too, he eneded up falling asleep friday night at one of the tables, it was cute. then Amanda, who was our program coordinator, who helped jason alot, and she was just really inspiring to me, and really sweet, can't wait to talk to her again, then Houston, who was such a dork, he's like the....uh, can't describe him, he's just very unique, and awesome though too, even though all of the girls, well not all becasue it wasn't me, were like all over him.... at GOD CAMP! it made me so mad, cus all they would do is flirt, then lets see, ramsey, our tools person, she was cool,but we didnt' really talk much unless she was reading a bed time story, or waking me up. haha. then Cameron, who was the first person i talked to i believe, i sat next to him at lunch, and come to find out he was in my cmg, or Christian mission group, who i was paired with all week to do the projects, he was cool, and hope we get together over the summer and hang out, and maybe go visit miss. ellis. then Sara, who was also in my cmg, and was such an awesome girl, i love her, and i hope we get together this week like we're planning, but if not, i'm gonna see her before she goes to college, then Thalia, who was also in my cmg, she was cool but said some oddball stuff, but we still love her. then Dennis, who goes to IPUM but we never really talked, and he was in my cmg, and was funny, cameron had a ball making fun of him all week, then george, who was our driver, who was awesome and helped us out so much this week. and then Matt, who was cool, he also goes to ipum, and we just hung out alot during the week too. Lauren who is cameron's sister, was awesome too, she was really nice and i enjoyed her company, we're gonna go to the mall one day, then allyson, who was katie's bunk buddy, but she and i shared some good warm fuzzy's on the board. then Kari, who was my bunk buddy, she was so funny and sweet, we prayed for eachother every night, and we just inspired eachother everymorning as we got up, it was great. well that's all i'm gonna write for now seeing as this to me seems like a novel already, but i just cant express how much fun i had, well gonna go! love ya'll